Me? Athletic? Awww, shucks...really?
Monday, April 16, 2012
Yup..I am in a little bit of a shock here.
I was called "athletic"...well, not really, but close enough for me.
A soccer ball ran out onto the lacrosse field and I ran out and got it...so a mom I just met and another lax mom I already knew, both said, "Boy, look at you lookin' all althletic out there!" I started laughing b/c I can't take a compliment...and joked that maybe it had something to do with my sneakers, black OldNavy cargo pants and red half-zip fleece I had on that day...I sure looked very sporty.
It got me thinking though...I guess I have BECOME more athletic over the last few years because before Spark....I sure as heck was NOT!
I have no problem wearing the tight running gear in public now....I have no problem playing lacrosse or soccer with the kids in an open field. I even have it in my mind to gear up in my exercise clothes at the next lax game - just in case there is a track to walk on prior to the game (we usually wait a good half-hour before the game starts for the kids to warm up and practice a bit...why not use my time wisely, right?)
Another funny thing was that I was recognized by someone on the lax field whom I had met about 2 years ago...I've been steady for a while in appearance, so I don't know why I was a bit shocked at being recognized, but I was. When you originally come from a place where a) you don't want to be recognized because you are hiding or b) you don't consider yourself worthy of being recognized or c) you have changed so much in appearance that some people don't recognize you right off the bat or sometimes at all....or d) all of the above.....it was kinda weird to be sought out and said 'Hello!' to. (LOL - self-image baggage coming through loud and clear captain!)
Which also bring me to another realization that people notice me waaaay more than I realize...my bff has said that for yeeeeaaaars, but alas, I have never believed her. I've been noticing it more and more for some reason....makes me a bit wary in some ways, empowered in others.
Anyway....it's all about growth isn't it....things never cease to amaze me, especially when it comes to self-realization. Call me overly humble...call it emerging self-esteem...whatever it is takes time, that is for darn sure.
OK - gotta get my "athletic" butt on the road and walk to work today...it's a beautiful day out and there is a ton of stuff I have to do.
TTYL Sparkbuds...hoping tonight is a night to visit some of you!