Sunday, April 15, 2012
I had cashewnuts in my cupboard that no longer takes space... a result of trying to deal wih it myself instead of calling a friend.
It is clear to me that I can´t afford to keep my problems to myself but when that sneaky craving came, I totally forgot what to do and fought it by myself for a while, gave in and ate. Lesson learned, tonight I will try to call somebody ( I have a long list of possble OA-friends) before the ideas gets too strong. As the nuts are gone, they wont bother me but here is a can of raisins...normally no problem but when obsession really strikes anything "snacky" goes.
In other aspects the day was good. Sunshine, a walk in the woods and a bike tour kept doggy happy. I tried the trampoline for the first time this season and notices that my feet, ankles and calves had a lot to do although I was not really jumling, my feelt hardly left the mat, I was sort of rocking it and trying not to fall, my balance need a lot of training! I am a little sore today, I don´t know if I will have time to do it today, it is too wet in the morning so it has to be this afternoon.
I attended an oa phone meeting - step two - and called that posible friend-to-be and told her about my shortage of gas/money.Felt ok.
Today I will use a supplement for lunch, I did not have the energy yesterday to create something, had chickpea soup for lunch and that made me feel kind of hopeless although I don´t know why. That old feeling "is this the way it is going to be for the rest of my life..." Need some practising of "just for today" with that.