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Going nuts!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I had cashewnuts in my cupboard that no longer takes space... a result of trying to deal wih it myself instead of calling a friend.

It is clear to me that I can´t afford to keep my problems to myself but when that sneaky craving came, I totally forgot what to do and fought it by myself for a while, gave in and ate. Lesson learned, tonight I will try to call somebody ( I have a long list of possble OA-friends) before the ideas gets too strong. As the nuts are gone, they wont bother me but here is a can of raisins...normally no problem but when obsession really strikes anything "snacky" goes.

In other aspects the day was good. Sunshine, a walk in the woods and a bike tour kept doggy happy. I tried the trampoline for the first time this season and notices that my feet, ankles and calves had a lot to do although I was not really jumling, my feelt hardly left the mat, I was sort of rocking it and trying not to fall, my balance need a lot of training! I am a little sore today, I don´t know if I will have time to do it today, it is too wet in the morning so it has to be this afternoon.

I attended an oa phone meeting - step two - and called that posible friend-to-be and told her about my shortage of gas/money.Felt ok.

Today I will use a supplement for lunch, I did not have the energy yesterday to create something, had chickpea soup for lunch and that made me feel kind of hopeless although I don´t know why. That old feeling "is this the way it is going to be for the rest of my life..." Need some practising of "just for today" with that.
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  • SILLYHP1953
    I have trouble asking for help, too. I have trouble REMEMBERING to ask for help before it's too late. I have trouble remembering to pray for help. When obsession takes over my brain stops working. You can do this, I know it.
    2720 days ago
    Hope the OA meetings help you. I find my Saturday meeting indispensable....and definitely call somebody when you need a boost.
    2798 days ago
    It really is hard when temptation hits. Cashews are good in small quantities. Measure a small amount and package them separately for one packet a day.
    Your first good decision is made in the grocery store. I pretend one of my fellow spark Folk is going to check my selections. I hope and pray you can benefit from some suggestions. Hugs, Jane emoticon emoticon
    2798 days ago
    Oh I so understand the cashews; and the raisins! I do use nuts as a protein snack but keep a mix of almonds (raw unsalted), walnuts (ditto) and a small bag of roasted salted almonds mixed in. The salt and roasted "flavor" permeates the raw nuts. I've never binged on these. Other nuts are banned from my house; an occasional purchase for company and in my mind designated as "theirs"; left overs leaving with them! I use tricks that work on my trigger foods. i.e. I'll only buy 2 bananas at a time. Because most likely I will eat what I buy in a short time. Raisins still catch me off guard. I love them in my cereal in the morning so do buy them. My best defense is to put them in the small boxes I've saved from the snack size packages. They are just the right amount for my cereal. Strangely, I will not sit and open all those little boxes to overeat on raisins. But, will easily eat a cup or more straight from the big box. I forbid myself nothing but that does not mean I have control over everything! I've just learned what I can safely keep in the house and what I can enjoy out or buy in single servings. Even when I slip up; I do track it. Thankfully today it's usually something healthy; just too much of it.
    Use whatever tools you can to help you!
    WTG on the trampoline! Balance is SO important! Keep at it, even if your feet never leave the mat you are working a lot of important muscles! Be well.
    2798 days ago
    Support is wonderful, so good for you that you have it!

    Have a great day!

    2799 days ago
  • BD3269PM
    Use the support whenever you need it. And every day will get better and better. You can do this--YOU are worth it emoticon
    2799 days ago
    Glad that you have the support of friends. It definitely helps.
    Have a good day!
    2799 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Hope you have a great Monday.
    2799 days ago
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