A little freaked and my talk...
Sunday, April 15, 2012
So I'm a little freaked because of my foot. The left one. It is SWOLLEN! It hurts a lot - like the skin is stretched and maybe the bones under the skin are sore too. It is just the top of my foot, from the toes to almost the ankle - the bottom is fine. There is no redness, no heat, so I'm assuming this isn't an infection, but I think I've got to head to the doctor tomorrow.
This thing has been going on since about Wednesday, and seems to do worse with activity. I followed the RICE rule (rest, ice, compression and elevation) and it seems to help, but it is not completely better. I've also been doing very little on it - no official cardio since friday. I am really feeling the need to work out now.
My talk went well. I picked shoes that hid my freakish left foot, and managed to talk myself out of producing enormous sweat stains on my unfortunately chosen "shirt that shows all wetness". The only bummer was that I went first, and since more than 3/4 of the people showed up late, I gave my talk to about 5 people. The current chair had a much bigger crowd, but we were able to do the q&a together with about 20 folks. I got to send out my statement, so hopefully, those who missed it were able to read it.
The weird thing is, that I've been pretty ambivalent about this whole thing. I thought it would be good either way, because I knew how much work it would be if I got it. I actually got sort of nervous a couple of times before the talk, wondering what I might be getting myself in to. Well, now that the talk is over, I find myself feeling more confident. Not that I will win - I honestly have no idea about the outcome. I just feel very confident in my ability to DO THIS THING. If I'm selected, I will be challenged, I will have to work very hard. Heck! I do that already! I'm a sparkperson! I'm feeling capable, and full of pride in the way I carried myself at the meeting. I think I can be a good leader, and I think I'm ready.
We'll see soon if I get the chance- the ballots are due this week, and will be counted on Friday.