Oh Boy, Did I Mess Up... A Tracker Reminder
Sunday, April 15, 2012
So, here's the thing. You can be going great, have everything under control because you learned how to do it, and think that you are on the right path. But I have discovered I have lost my balance. I was too far in control in the past 2 weeks. Let me explain.
It was my spring break. My boyfriend and I decided to paint his mom's kitchen and eating area, extending to the small bathroom as a late birthday present. I was also in the mindset that I needed to make sure I keep in check, since it was a holiday break, and I didn't want to slip into bad habits. Well, I didn't do that, not exactly. I managed to lose 8 lbs. in 10 days, exhausting myself from malnutrition and what I perceive is an iron deficiency. Nice, huh? That's me... so much in control that I lost control.
I never considered that crazy labor of painting and cleaning as calorie expenditure, and did not eat enough. The funny thing is common sense tells me that if I was that concerned about making sure I stayed on track, I should have tracked for those 2 weeks. Duh. I know this. But it just didn't occur to me. I haven't needed to track in so long... yet that is the thing, isn't it?
Regardless of our success or setbacks, those of us that are lifers in the game of keeping control of our habits need to check into our trackers every so often, even if just for a day or two, just to make sure we are doing what is needed, as our lives change, as circumstances change.
I will always see myself in a sort of mental combat with the scale, my own love/hate relationship. Gain 3 pounds, I hate it; Lose 3, and I couldn't love it more because it has validated my hard work. However, this big loss was a bit scary when I didn't seem to have the energy to get out of bed. It was all a bit of a wake up call. The scale called me on the fact that I hadn't eaten enough for the energy I was exerting, and to top that, somewhere along the way I had stopped taking my multivitamin. Why you ask? I have no idea. I take every other pill I have. It just slipped slowly down the cracks of time. And I am paying for it.
As a result of all of this, I am back tracking, not only food but my iron intake. I would hate to think I was getting too busy to take care of myself, but I honestly believe I was getting close to that point. I say no to that. And with any luck, I will make my boyfriend a spark member too. He has been talking about joining. ;)