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Week in review - need solutions

Saturday, April 14, 2012

181 lbs today. So no loss for my 5% challenge team. But at least no gain this week either. We ae halfway through this challenge now and it looks like it will be another challenge of no progress but if I can end at my starting weight then I will be happy with that means in the next 4 weeks I would like to lose 5 pounds.

I am on the Sass Bahama Mama team and this week we were to get in 4-20 minutes sessions of cardio and 2 - 20 minute sessions of st. I have gotten in 3 cardio sessions and plan to get the 4th one in today. Failed to get the st in again......need to go through my workout dvds and find some of the ones that are cicuit style with stength and cardio and maybe that will make me do it.

I did much better with my eating this week. I track my food right now on another site and they encourage you to eat back your exercise calories.......when I log and do it consistently it does work but I am not consistent and need to work on that. I even managed to eat good and get in a workout Thursday when i worked but it was a shot day and I only worked 3 hours. Now Friday I worked 6 hours and got knocked off course.......I ate breakfast about 5:30am and had two eggs, two pieces of toast, a bowl of instant oatmeal fruit flavored, and 1/2 cup honey bunches of oats cereal to top my oatmeal (this was a high calorie breakfast - much higher than I like to usually have my meals but I wanted it to stick with me). I sat down for about 10 minutes or so aound 10am for lunch (I was getting a little hungry before this but not bad) I ate a hormel compleat meal and it was the chicken marinara meal and I think it had between 200-300 calories and I had a slim fast snack bar for 100 calories (cause I need something sweet).......this meal did NOT stick with me yesterday very long at all - it wasn't long and I felt empty and was hungry again. When I got off work at 1pm I had a Nature valley (I think that is the brand) chewy protein granola bar and it had 190 calories. Once I got home I was hurting so I rested on the couch and logged all my food in and didn't have much calories left fo the day (usually when I am not working I have a much smaller breakfast and lunch and have a few small snacks too so then my stuff is kinda equally spaced and i have a little bit of a bigger supper and a small evening snack). So i was trying to keep my mind off of food though I felt like i needed something and then this backfired on me and around 3 pm I gave in to junk and it was downhill from there.

Also this week I am fighting some really down feelings. Part of it has to be because of stress. Can't seem to find a job. Am working this part time job right now and am making less than min. wage and not getting many hours. feel like i am a failure as a mom cause i want to supply more for my kids. don't have any friends to hang out with. am lonely. feel down on myself with the weight loss stuggles and the overeating. feels like such a load on my shoulders and I am so weary.
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    The last paragraph was really sad. You are such a wonderful person. I wish you could find a great job. I will send a prayer for you. Have faith. Things will get better.
    2258 days ago
    Marki is right, you're still here!! That is SO good. Step 1, DONE!! You will get there. I found with this journey that it is true what they say about all addicts, it's only when you're TRULY ready to make a complete change that you will make a change. And these processed foods are so addicting. They have things in them to make you want more. You will be able to do this and you are already on your way. You can only take one step at a time and you have already taken the first step. You will get there! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! We are here with you every step of the way. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! If you are, that means we all are, and I refuse to believe that. We have each other. We can do this together!!
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    2260 days ago
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    Look at all the positive things you have been doing and start dwelling on them. You mentioned quite a few emoticon
    For those stressful times keep in mind a quote from one of our Spark friends : If hunger is not the problem then food is not the solution. I don't always follow that rule but do it more now than before I read it.

    Hang in there, support I know is here for the asking.

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    2260 days ago
    Hang in there Alicia!! As Marki said you are not alone!! You have all us Mamas cheering you on!! Maybe if you added some cut up veggies or some fruit to your snacks it will help you feel full longer.
    2260 days ago
    It helps to boost packaged meals with extra veggies that will help keep you full longer. What works for me is to prep a bunch of carrots sticks, red bell pepper strips, celery sticks, etc. to have on hand for snacks - preferably as soon as I get them home from the grocery store. It sounds like there were few fruits and veggies on your meal plan - so this week's 5% challenge will be a good one for you! (and me too!)
    2260 days ago
    You are a great role model for your children. Hard work and persistence will pay off for you. Don't give up. Sending lots of good energy your way :)

    Smile and Enjoy the rest of your Day!
    Melinda (gopintos)
    Dr. Oz Show Fans Team
    2260 days ago
    I'm sorry the week wasn't better but I'm glad you maintained and you did get quite a bit of exercise in. Maybe when you are feeling down you can get outside with the kids and it will be a better stress reducer than the food. You're doing your best, the right job will come along and your kids think you're great as you are so be kind to yourself. Have a great weekend.
    2260 days ago
    Don't feel badly! Do your best, and I am sure things can work out for you :) You did track things well, and you did your exercises, while having a job (even part time is hard work!!!) AND you are taking care of your kids.

    You are a Super Mommy! Don't let it bother you, and spark friends are here to cheer you on! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2260 days ago
    I think the fact that you're still here and still fighting everyday IS progress. Even if your scale hasn't moved. The Spark Book has a chapter titled "Your Scale Doesn't Know Everything" or something like that, and it's true. So, don't give up on yourself. I'm sorry you're so lonely and you don't have the support you need right now, but you're definitely not alone.
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