Wow. It amazes me that every single person started their "what I'm proud of" blog with "wow this was really hard!!" ... and of course I feel the same way!! How sad is it that we will extol the virtues of complete strangers we know only through cyber space and reading posts and blogs, but think we ourselves aren't worth much!! Could that be part of why we are on this seemingly constant struggle to lose weight?
Okay, things I am proud of:
1) I am proud that although I have gained back and yoyo'd with my diet I am still, and have always been since I lost it, 35 lbs lighter than my highest weight and that was like 18 years ago.
2) I am proud that I have educated people who have gone on to touch others. One particularly has always touched me: there was a young girl I used to work with and I tought her HIV education (this was back in the early 90s when people still weren't sure if you could "catch it" from casual contact). One of her managers at a 2nd job was having a really bad night and she cornered him and asked what was wrong. He told her his partner of 26 years had just died from AIDS. She reached out to him and told him how sorry she was. He broke down in tears because she was the first person who knew who had TOUCHED him. Everyone else was afraid of being contaminated. Can you imaging? Grieving your loved one after 26 years and no one would touch him much less hug or hold him while he grieved.
3) I am proud of being the type of person who people come to when they have problems.
4) I am proud for learning how to ask for and accept help from others.
5) I am proud of being "good" with kids and dogs.
6) I am proud for not having done "something stupid" last spring/summer when I was critically clinically depressed.
7) I am proud of forgiving my parents for being imperfect.
8) I am proud that my sister knows she can rely on me to be there for her while she's going through treatment for breast cancer.
9) I am proud of embrassing opportunities for doing walks, rides, volunteer events, camping, sports and other things that many excuse themselves from because they are "too fat".
10) Most of all, I am proud for trying and trying and trying and trying no matter what and no matter how many times I may fail. You can knock me down and you can drag me though the dirt, but you can't keep me from getting back up.