Freaking out a bit about getting to ONEderland....
Thursday, April 12, 2012
So 10 days ago April 2nd I weighed in at 209.5lbs 9.6lbs away from ONEderland...I was extremely excited thinking I'm right on track if I'm losing about 2.5lbs per week to hit my ONEderland goal by May1st....I have had that date in mind for a very long time...its my sons third birthday! So then this past Monday I weigh in at 209.5 again...ahhhhhhh! Now I'm freaking out. Have I hit a plateau the last few weeks before my goal date. Its not a matter of me worrying about being in the ones I know that is going to happen...its a matter of making it happen by May 1st. Which you may think I'm just being silly about..which may be true....but when I set a goal for myself I intend on MAKING it happen. So now I have set myself up to having to lose a little more than 3lbs per week....which I know I can do. Thing is I thought I did that last week. I busted my tail working out and eating right...I guess its really no different than any other week. Its just frustrating and discouraging. I mean my mom was in town visiting and of course she loves taking her grandbabies for icecream....so a couple days we walked to get icecream I however passed it up and just ordered an unsweetened ice tea....so I dont endulge in these things do what I'm suppose to do and I hit a plateau.....so yes I'm freaking out! Had I messed up and hit a plateau I would be okay with that knowing that this week I would just change it. But I'm freaking out because I'm like what do I change...I ahve to break through this plateau THIS week otherwise I will have to make up weightloss for 2 weeks insted of one...May 1st is going to be here before I know it...I just hope ONEderland comes before then! Sorry....thanks for reading my vent!
I am aware its just a number....however I'm also aware I have NEVER weighed in at that number since elementary school I was 255 at the age of 12 so yeah that "just a number" is meaning a lot to me right now! :o) eeeekkkkk