Sunday, April 08, 2012
So, this week has been a little spotty.
I would tell you I was sick - I was. I would tell you I was tired - I was. I would tell you I didn't have the mental energy to push myself to be my best - I didn't. But none of that really matters.
I didn't do my best this week. I gave myself most of this week off, which really means I cheated myself out of five days of a healthy life. I didn't track everything - which also means I let down my team on our Spring Challenge this week. I didn't exercise every day, so I feel more tired than I would have, had I worked out.
I would tell you I ran out of gas, but that's not really what happened. I just kept telling myself that I would do better tomorrow. I got pulled into my own trap, one that I try so hard to steer clear of. And then I didn't do anything "tomorrow".
I still lost weight - 3 pounds, woop!! But it feels like I cheated. I didn't skip meals, I tried to estimate what foods would work and fit into a calorie range, so something went okay. But I feel like I let myself down most of all.
Now, this is not really a set back of any kind. And all I have to do is pick myself back up off of the ground, and get going. I should really read through some of my "breakthrough" blogs, to refocus on the why and the how of all of this. Remember that I'm fighting for my life. Remind myself that I have no excuses. Reiterate the blessings I have been given and am taking for granted.
I will be back. I will continue to be strong. I will break through.
(And next week hopefully my weight will be in the 220s!!!)