I am building speed.... I am reaching small goals every day..... I think I just might be able to pull this off!
Since I started, I have noticed 4 things:
1. I have lost weight
2. I have lost inches
3. I have grown my support system to include some REALLY motivational people
4. I am noticing the little "negative" voice in my head isn't so loud anymore
I have lost 25 pounds so far (weigh in on Monday). It seemed to just melt off. But then I tell myself that most of it was water weight because the only real thing I was doing was drinking more water and tracking my calories. (Of course the little changes weren't noticed..stairs, not elevator). Then I hit a week where I didn't lose anything (last week).
But what really gets me excited is the inches.... It was all about a number when I first started. Now, I am excited about the inches and the energy growth. Before, I couldn't talk myself into walking into the kitchen to get something to drink, much less let Bob or Jillian kick my butt for 20-30 minutes (Biggest Loser UW xbox kinect)! Now, I have been telling Jillian to "bring it"!
Before I started, I didn't even want to tell myself how much I weighed, let alone my family or friends. But when someone confided in me that they were starting their SP journey, I told them that I noticed when I told more people, I grew my support and accountability system. This made me realize that I wanted to tell everyone! People on the street, the grocery check out girls, my new neighbors, no one was safe!
Since then, I have had two weeks of consistency. I have worked out at least 3 days both weeks and I feel good! The little voice telling me I can't, or that I'm too tired is finally shutting its big fat face and I am learning to have confidence! I no longer talk myself into or out of anything. I just leave it simple (K.I.S.S... Keep it simple stupid). I forgot how smart and true that saying was. So I either do, or I don't. I find that I can do more times than not by not over thinking it. I make it easy for myself as well. Leave workout gear all over, just in case. Water bottles are stock piled in the fridge.
I am leaving no room for excuses. I am taking it one day at a time, splitting my day into 30 minute segments to keep myself from becoming over whelmed. I am getting me back and I am loving it! I no longer care about what weight I get to in the long run. I don't even care what size I get to. I just want to get where I feel confident and comfortable. I want to be able to have kids and to keep up with them. I want to be able to proudly tell people that I lost over 100 pounds.
I WANT to get there....
I WILL get there....
I CAN get there!