Happy easter - Going to NY - Cancer news

Saturday, April 07, 2012

Well I am still fighting... I haven't told you that the doctors found more cancer in my spine so I have gone to 10 radiations on my upper spine and on Tuesday I am going to have 5 radiations on my lower spine.

I am in a lot of pain if I can be honest and I am taking a lot of pain medicine. I even think I was little bit high for a week hehehe they were so strong, but that has gone now. Instead I have this pain when I swallow food, I just can feel it going slowly to my stomach and I make a funny face while it is doing it because it hurts so much. I called the doctor yesterday and a nurse and they think I am having heartburns because of the medicines I am taking so I bought something to help me but I don't feel that is working :(

Not fun starting this blog by complaining like this!

Even though I am going through this all again I am enjoying live around me and people are so kind to me. My best friend in the world called me the other day (she lives in NY) and she and her husband bought tickets for me to NY for six days!!!!

When two of my other friends heard this they also bought tickets one of them lives in Seattle and the other in Iceland and they are also going!!!! Just two days ago my cousin (I think she is my cousin, she is younger then me, well only one year) she told me that she is coming to but she lives in California!!!

I am going 19th of April so I am super excited!!!!

I have not been exercising, I should handle my diet better but I am always telling myself that I have to start. But you know how it is...

I guess when you read this and you know my blog, you can read between the lines that I am not like my self. My spirit is a little broken :( I often think about death, how is the future going to be and what will happen...

But I am not always like this :) And to proof it, here are some pictures of what I have been doing since I last blogged :)

Happy easters everyone! I think to you a lot!

Remember I am Barbietec on Istagram if you have iPhones :)

This is me getting some bone medicine to make the bones stronger

My father, sister and I went to a football game together :) That was a lot of fun!

My son in a really nice store :)

The spring is coming to Iceland so I found my bicycle :)

I write articles for a lifestyle Blog and allt the writers were invited to come to the blue lagoon for a day. Wow that was awesome. We ate, drank, got some spa, went to the blue lagoon *ahh* I was there for 10 hours!!! Just relaxing and enjoying life!!

Me and my husband on a dance :)

This is Elettra Wiedeman she is the Lancome face, daughter of Isabella Rosselini and her grandmother was Ingrid Bergman OMG! I was at a Lancome Party (because of the lifestyle Blog) and she was the guest of honor) OMG!

I got an iPad 3!!!!! I absolutely love it! I have never own an iPad so I am really impressed with ti! I have been drawing pictures on it and one of them even got published in the biggest news paper in Iceland heheheheh.. They saw it on my blog and took the picture and talked about my blog hihihi...

this is the picture

and here is another that I did with the iPad (THAT I LOVE)

I have also been making jewelry's... But I don't like it that much so I have stopped hehehe

My favorite restaurant in the whole world is Cheesecake Factory. When I go to USA I drive as far I have to, to go there. And my favorite cake from that restaurant is the GODIVE cheesecake.

Everyone knows that and even my coworkers have found out but one of them brought me a slice when she came home from BOSTON!!!! How fantastic is that! I was so surprised hehehe :)

I went with my father to this church it is a church that makes your wishes come true and my father wanted to go with me. We are not religious people so I was shocked when he called me and told me that we should go to this church. It says so much how he is feeling and I think he is afraid that I am going to die.

We went to the animal farm yesterday and had a lovely time there :)

Now I am going to the mall, practicing for NY :) My friend asked me if I could do it, but I told her that I have two choices. Let the cancer and pain control me or take the control. So we are going, we just walk slower and sit down more often :)

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    I have been thinking about you and looking for an update from you. I assume you are headed to NYC? Crazy place, but it's the city that never sleeps. This is a good time of year to go. Don't let the doctor's tell you how you feel, if it is pain and not heartburn let them know!! My grandmother had cancer in the spine and she was in a lot of pain...they told her it was all in her head until she got's don't know everything. Have fun with your friends and family...sometimes laughter IS the best medicine. emoticon
    3313 days ago
    Oh, Sweetheart,

    My heart goes out to you. You have such a wonderful attitude with all that you are dealing with. I am holding you in prayer and praying that the wish you made at that beautiful little church comes true. Keep the faith - it can move mountains. Enjoy your trip to New York!
    3318 days ago
    I love love love your pictures and your attitude is inspiring and motivating. I think about your battle and struggle and send peace and healing thoughts your way!
    3319 days ago
    I have been praying for you. I think of you all the time and I am so happy to get an update on how you are doing!

    I too love the Cheesecake Factory. My favorite is the pineapple upside down cake cheesecake....OMG, it is soooooooo good! My DD and I had it twice last trip to Los Angeles together.

    So excited for you to go on your trip....I hope you have a wonderful time. I know how much you love to travel and visit your friends too.

    Your pictures are amazing. Keep thinking positive. I understand you are not religious. I am not religious either but I do believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. He can and he does heal. He has been healing people since bible times. I am asking him to reveal himself to you personally and to heal you.

    Once again so great to hear how you are doing.

    Love, prayers and hugs,

    Happy Easter to you and your beautiful family!

    3321 days ago
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    Enjoy the trip to New York! I'm sure I am only one of many who are sending you positive thoughts!
    3321 days ago
  • LAURIE5658
    I want you to know that i have been thinking about you alot lately. You are in my prayers.

    3321 days ago
    You are such an inspiration to me! even when your life is not going as planned, you still have the strength and grace to keep going on. I know that you said you are not a religious person, so it is interesting that your Dad wanted you to go to the church with him. I am a believer. I know that God does answer prayers. we just have to remember that sometimes His answer is not the one we were hoping for.

    If you ever decide to read the Bible, check out the 4 gospels: Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. they are full of the hope that comes from knowing Jesus as your savior.

    May Peace Be With You! Enjoy that trip to NYC!
    3321 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    My dear sweet Friend - I send you gentle hugs and love - I send you positive thoughts and hope that your treatments bring relief from pain and from the cancer. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
    3321 days ago
    So good to hear from you. You're awfully busy for a cancer patient! I'm jealous of your 10 hour Blue Lagoon stay. I could float in that pool for days. I love your pictures, especially the little fishy one. Such talent! Have a wonderful time in NY. I'm not surprised you have friends who would drop everything to join you. You inspire that kind of friendship.Every morning when I Spark I think of you. Stay positive. Stay strong. Fight like a girl. ;)
    3321 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2012 12:39:05 PM
    Thankyou for letting us know your news. Wishing and hoping that radiation kills all the cancer cells! I love your attitude!
    You will love NYC. We had a wonderful time when we were there last year. Loved Central Park.

    Big gentle hugs my dear Sparkfriend.

    Loved all the photos and your beautiful artwork.
    3321 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2012 11:29:06 AM
  • SWAZY33
    Easter blessings to you too! I hope all your wishes do come true! The uncertainty of dealing with cancer IS so tough but, I believe you and your desire to live are stronger!! ENJOY ENJOY NYC!
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    3322 days ago
    I am so happy that you are getting a chance to go to NYC. Central Park is one of the great places with lots of benches so one can rest more often. And NYC has every kind of food, so many different ways to have fun. So wonderful such good friends could join you on this journey.

    My husband loves the IPAD2 he got recently and found it is much quicker than his laptop when we travel away from home. I got an Iphone 4S upgrade recently and just love that, too. Your photos are great! I love your artwork photos and your Instagram photos.

    Thank you for updating us on your journey and am glad that you are still having fun! And your son has the most adorable smile!

    Sending healing vibes your way! Wishing you the very best!

    You are amazing and an inspiration! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3322 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2012 8:24:49 AM
    emoticon It is hard to read all you are going through but so inspiring to see you still living your life your way and sharing with those who matter to you the most.

    Sending healing vibes your way!
    3322 days ago
    I love the pictures, especially the drawings that you created. You are so very creative!

    You are in my thoughts for a full and speedy recovery.

    3322 days ago
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    Wow you are so talented! You also have a great attitude! Enjoy Ny ,have some cheesecake and you are blessed to have great friends!

    Happy Easter to you too!

    Take care and thanks for sharing!

    3322 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2012 7:17:13 AM
  • JLITT62
    I know I always say this but it's true - you are incredibly inspiring. And talented! I love my iPad 1 (typing on it now).

    Many prayers & hugs - and thanks for letting us share your journey.
    3322 days ago
    Thank you for taking the time to keep us updated with what's going on in your life. I absolutely love your photos. The picture you made was perfect!

    How exciting about going to New York!!! You are truly lucky to have great friends but that is because you are a special person as well :)

    I sincerely hope all goes well with your health and I have to say once more that you are an admirable person for your strength of spirit.

    Take care and most of all enjoy yourself!!!

    Elen xxx
    3322 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2012 6:10:05 AM
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