A visit from the bad-body issue fairy.

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Okay, so I had been doing really well, body-image wise, lately. I really didn't feel fat or uncomfortable with my body...and it felt pretty awesome. I knew I was working out - hard - at least three times a week, and I was feeling pretty awesome about it.

This week, though...the old feelings are rearing their ugly heads.

I HATE feeling this way. I hate not being pleased when I look in the mirror...I hate looking at my face and seeing the extra weight in my cheeks and neck...and I'm not imagining the extra weight; it's there, I'm at least twenty pounds overweight. It's just that for some reason, this week I'm really *really* noticing it.

This sucks. I know that my diet is just. messed. up. I eat WAY too much junk and WAY too much sugar and not NEARLY enough vegetables, but I just seem to have so little control, and when I do, it's quite feels like making the "right" choice this time is so insignificant that it isn't going to make any difference in the long run, anyway. Like I'm the fat girl eating the salad.

I'm seriously considering cutting my sugar...I think I might be addicted or whatevertheheck. I'm going to look into it, but at the very least, I need to take a serious look at what I'm eating every day.
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    Start logging your food if you haven't been. I mean every bite, every meal, every day. Don't for a moment think that 'this little bit doesn't matter' because your body doesn't know that.

    I find that when I log everything, it's easier for me to stay in my range. Some days I DO go over. Today, I thought I had a healthful breakfast, but when I logged it, it was huge! So, I ate more lightly the rest of the day and ended up within my range. I spread out the remaining calories, too, so I wouldn't be hungry.

    Try it -- log everything. It couldn't hurt!

    2208 days ago
    Ah the fat girl eating the salad I know it well. I don't think I could cut my sugar out I would die without my chocolate. I probably am addicted but I don't care. I know how you feel on the body image too. I had the shock of a lifetime a few weeks ago when I had trouble getting out of a car and trying on makeup at the mall shocked me that I have a triple chin. I'm having trouble at night I'm good all day then can't stop eating at night.
    2208 days ago
    I don't like those days, either. Most days I'm okay with my body (and by that I mean I don't cringe when I look at myself!) but today I was buying a new bra and really did NOT like the way I looked in them.

    If you're serious about the sugar thing there's that new Spark Challenge all about reducing sugar in your diet. I know a bunch of people who are doing it.

    Hang in there, sweetie! You can do it!
    2208 days ago
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