Worst Critic

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

First of all, I can't believe it's been nearly 4 years since I've hung out here! I've been back on SP for a little over a week now, and am determined to make the most of it.

In my attempts to re-start and get back on track, I've been training to be able to do the 100K Relay to End Kids Cancer in the fall. It's a team event with relay legs between 2K and 14K. I'm following the Couch to 5K program to get to the point where I can run a 5K, and then later, move up to a 10K. Couch to 5K is a great program, and based on everything I've read and all the advice I've received from runners, I have decided to focus on running for time first, and then concentrate on speed/distance later. As such, I've set a few running mini goals for myself and posted them on my Sparkpage.

Last night, I achieved one of my mini goals -- running for 5 minutes consecutively. And what do you think was the first thing I did after achieving that goal? It wasn't celebrate, or reward myself. It was to berate myself because I'm not running fast enough. Because I'm focusing on time, I'm running at a very slow pace -- a pace that many would probably consider a fast walk -- 4.1 mph. So after doing 5 consecutive minutes at 4.1 mph (with the final 30 seconds at 4.5 mph) with my calves screaming in pain (actually, I did this twice, following the Couch to 5K program), I listened to the little voice in my head that told me that it wasn't good enough. That it was really just a walk, so what did I have to be proud of?

I know I should be proud of that accomplishment. I should also be proud of the fact that I've stuck with this program for 4 weeks, and when I took a week off because I was injured, I stuck with alternative workouts, and then came back to it. In my head I know all of this. I'm working on silencing the voice of the critic and being proud of what I achieve. I think it might be a long road.

Relay to End Kids Cancer: searscanada.akaraisin.co

Couch to 5K: www.c25k.com/
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