Monday, April 02, 2012
So my husband, step-son & I spent the weekend in Minneapolis for my step-daughter's birthday. We spent most of our time at Mall of America. Personally, I love shopping! My husband & step-son - not so much. So we kind of compromised. I quickly scanned stores that we don't have locally while they sat & waited for me outside the stores. All I ended up buying was a bar of soap from the LUSH store. There were so many other things I wanted, especially a pair of shoes I saw at Marshalls but I didn't feel like I deserved them. I came home feeling kind of sad that my shopping at MOA wasn't more fun. We also went to the Sea Life aquarium & went on a rollercoaster. Then we needed to eat. My husband fell in love with a little restaurant called Pardon My French. We ate there 3 times! But we walked the mall for 6 hours & swam at the hotel. (My swimsuit was a tad too big but not enough to need to buy a new one.) Still, I came home 2 pounds heavier.
I'm a little frustrated. I felt I made good decisions for food except that I chose to have a piece of cake at the French restaurant & stole about 5 of my husband's french fries from McDonalds. (I forgot how good those fries are & I really wanted my step-son's Big Mac.) Otherwise I chose a salad with vinaigrette at the French restaurant over the cheesy stuff my hubby & step-son got. I picked a salad when we went to McDonalds. Did a piece of cake & 5 french fries cause me to gain 2 pounds back?! I seriously can't eat cake anymore? I think I must be missing something that I'm doing wrong.
I'm so tired of tracking my food. It wouldn't be so bad if this computer was faster but it takes about 2 minutes to open a new page. I usually leave the room & get a drink or something when I have to switch to a new page. It sucks! I want my computer back! And I've actually limited the food that eat so that I don't have to keep entering new foods into the tracker.
I think I might have to go back to the exercise bike instead of my walking videos. I prefer the walking videos but I was losing weight faster while doing the cycling. I really don't care for the cycling but its what I have. I don't feel like exercising at all today. Sorry if this is a little gross but I want to explain. I have a wart on the side of my big toe that I've had since high school. I've been trying to treat it forever. I've even had the doctor try to remove it 3 times. Well I've finally been having some luck using apple cider vinegar. I gave my foot a break from it for a little bit so that I could actually walk around MOA & go swimming without it being sore. (And, yes, I covered it with a waterproof bandage at the pool & had sandals so I didn't spread it!) But now that I'm not planning on swimming again soon I'm back to treating it. And does it ever hurt! It feels like someone is sticking a needle into the side of my toe all the way to the bone. But I really want the sucker gone for summer! It's almost gone already from my past ACV treatments. So I don't feel like using my feet today.
I applied for a job today. It scared me to death but I just made myself sit down & do it without thinking about it. I keep over thinking things and talking myself out of doing things all the time. Hopefully I'll get a call & I can feel worthwhile again.
I learned something interesting the other day. Apparently when the "bad stuff" happened I was interviewed by an FBI agent. Either I was too shaken up to comprehend or the agent didn't tell me. Either way, I was shocked to find that out.
Anyway, I'm a little frustrated with this healthy lifestyle. My body feels like giving up but my brain luckily knows better. I just feel like I'm not doing something right & I'm not sure what it is. Perhaps I'm just slacking off & need a kick in the butt. I think I need a do over. LOL