I know that I owe everybody who's been following my marathon training an update blog, but I need to write this out first (so stay tuned, if not later today, an update will be posted tomorrow).
I've been in free-fall.
It's only to be expected really, I mean I left my job last week and immediately went on a road-trip. Just the travel and schedule changes would lead to a bit of free-fall for anybody. Unfortunately, the free-fall started a little early in my case, as the last two nights of work involved copious amounts of food provided by co-workers that I couldn't - and really didn't want to - refuse. Monday night we'd planned a little potluck, and though I brought in a veggie tray I intentionally indulged in BBQ and had some chips and one of the Panera bagels (cinnamon crunch, SO yummy) that one of my newer co-workers had brought for me 'cause he "owed" me (for taking a call for him he wasn't ready to deal with). The following day our supervisor gave my co-worker (she who was forever feeding us) money to pick up food for a HUGE spread and a cake for me, which was ridiculously thoughtful. Seriously.
Co-workers attacking the spread, and Mom (aka she who was forever feeding us). :)
I did NOT make the greatest of choices on the trip, either. From the philly cheesesteak potato that was the size of my head at McAlister's in Knoxville to the muffins I bought on the road to satisfy a "sweet jones" (at least I limited myself to one per day, but I ate all 4 before we came home) to dessert at the Marietta Diner (I didn't show you the picture of the huge custard-filled eclaire that *I* got, which I'm at least proud I only ate half and brought the rest home, but still...since we're confessing here, I'll show you).
Note - this is NOT a "beating myself up" blog (I made intentional decisions all the way around), this is just taking an honest look at the last 10 days in order to get a handle on what I've been letting slide.
And slide they definitely have. I've avoided the scale all week, trying to give my body a chance to "settle itself back out" after all the vacation indulgences, hoping that by Sunday (today) things would be back to a manageable level.
Today's weight: 189.5 lbs
NOT back in the 190s you'll notice, but far too close to make me happy about it.
SO, as of today things have to change. And I pretty much know what I need to work on. See, even with my weekends being 3-4 days per week, I've spent the last few months (okay, the last year really) relying on the structure of work days to get me back on track (as I've tended to be less careful about things on my weekends). I don't have that to fall back on anymore, which I hadn't realized has been such a huge crutch until now.
Now? Time to get serious. No more crutches, no more "structure to fall back on" - I need to make a serious plan and stick to it.
Areas that need attention:
* Getting in all my water
* Getting in at least 5 servings of freggies every day
* Making healthy meals EVERY day (since I don't have my easy-peasy-to-track frozen meals to fall back on)
* Neurotic tracking (okay, maybe not neurotic exactly, but tracking even the stuff I've generally been skipping like my flavored coffee creamer, to get a handle on exactly how many calories I'm really consuming in a given week)
* Fitness goals besides the marathon, so I don't end up in free-fall after The Pig
In the spirit of the Spark Diet, I'm going to break this down into weekly goals - only 3 per week - so I don't try to change too much too fast (a pitfall we're all well familiar with - when you try to change too many things at once you set yourself up for burn out and feeling like a failure).
SO, goals for this week (April 1 - Saturday April 7)
* Drink at least 64 oz of water every day (which means keeping my big water bottle by the computer and remembering to DRINK what's in it)
* Track EVERY SINGLE MORSEL that passes my lips, EVERY day.
* Consume at least 5 servings of freggies per day
That should do for a very good start towards getting things back under control. Weigh in day for the foreseeable future will be Sundays.
Let's do this!