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Body Image Distortion

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Apparently I am struggling with picturing and realizing my true size. After loosing over 240 pounds I often picture myself still 300 pounds or more. My mind has not caught up with my body. I can look in the mirror and see my body size accurately, yet if I close my eyes and imagine my body then or at a later time my body image becomes distorted and I see myself much larger.

This body distortion spills over into my clothing size as well. Today my friend Barbara gave me a top that was too big for her. I looked at the size (18) and told her that it wasn't going to fit. She told me to just try it on. I reluctantly tried it on and was was shocked that IT FIT!! Then she gave me this beautiful brown linen outfit, again a size 18. I told her the pants were just not going to fit; I am not a size 18! Well after trying on the outfit, the top is a bit big under my arms and the bottoms FIT PERFECTLY!! I can't believe that I can fit into a size 18 pants. Every brand is different, as I have a pair of wool pants size 22 that are tight, but I am continuing to reach new milestones.

Just as it has taken me time to find my self worth, it will take me longer still to correct my image distortion. The odd thing is, is that when I was 450 pounds I didn't see myself as that heavy and now that I am 205 pounds, I see myself as heavier.
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    Wow, I could have written this blog. This is a powerful way of knowing our brains need to change and we need to remember to take our body image with us to new heights. Do you know I haven't bought myself one ounce of clothing and I too have lost over 200 pounds...ummm yeah I wonder what I am waiting for. My clothes are falling off of me...why do we not appreciate our efforts?

    I think you are doing wonderful and proud of what you have! Remember the feelings of hopelessness and I am never going to be able to do it? Well..girl you are and have done it...rock on!


    2192 days ago
    Hey Sarah,

    When your mind does catch up with the real you, imagine the fun you will have clothes shopping! How exciting!
    You go girl.

    2201 days ago
    Congratulations on loosing the weight and fitting into smaller clothes. I hope you mind catches up to your body soon. Keep up the good work.
    2202 days ago
    This was a fun read, because your negative perceptions were proved wrong, which means it can happen again!!!!! Enjoy where you are, how far you've come and enjoy the work to get to your real goal. Just maybe, just maybe, you don't have to assess so much . . .but shoot, try on clothes every month, the size you think you are and one size smaller . . .maybe 2!!!!!
    2203 days ago
    one of the most awesome parts of slimming down is wearing new clothes in smaller sizes! I can understand that you see yourself as larger still, but soon you will get used to trying on smaller clothes. Way to go on your progress!
    2204 days ago
    It's another area that you need to retrain. This too will come with time. Great job on your weight loss!
    2208 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon getting in a size 18 !! Keep on pushing u will get to ur goal!! So close wow u have come so far!!
    2209 days ago
    I still struggle with this every once in a while. Congrats on your weight loss and getting into a size 18. emoticon
    2209 days ago
    I have always struggled with this. Unfortunately for me it makes it easier to gain weight. Saw some pictures of myself this weekend and I am definitely having a reality check about how much I have gained back. Reversing that trend NOW!
    2209 days ago
    My friend made me promise to always try clothes on from now forward. It is so difficult to know what will fit. If you lived closer I would give you the size 16s I got because the cut is strange and I think they would fit. That came out strange. I hope you understand my intent. You are doing so awesome.
    2211 days ago
  • CINDYKC2000
    emoticon You are doing amazing Sarah. Remember that you have not only lost the weight, but you have reshaped your body with all your exercise. emoticon
    2211 days ago
    It actually takes quite some time for the brain to catch up.
    Congratulations on your achievement and wishing you continued success.
    2211 days ago
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