FINALLY an update blog! *PICS*

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Happy April Spark Friends! Remember me? Long time no see. Anyone still out there? lol Has it really been almost 9 months since my last blog entry? Wow! I'm really slacking here. I think this calls for a brief update. I feel like so much has happened since my last blog but these are the highlights.

1) I started a new job a couple of months ago. I'm working as a dental assistant now. Crazy active job I don't sit down at all during my shift! I love it though and it's not too bad because it's not a very long day. For a while now I always thought I'd go back to school to persue a career path in the dietician/nutritionist field but now I'm considering going to school to be a dental hygienist. Anyway here's a couple of crappy pics I took on my cell phone at work in my scrubs (PS scrubs are amazing. What's better than basically PJs being your work uniform? lol)

Another big update is that I've finally had a little bit of luck in the dating department emoticon emoticon I'm not someone who has ever been opposed to the idea of online dating and know a few people who have had successful love matches after finding eachother on the internet. But still I could never imagine myself going through with actually joining any type of dating website. My other issue was that I've always been too timid to truly put myself out there in the "real world" or accept advances from any guy who's ever expressed any type of interest. I was basically waiting for someone to fall out of the sky and find me without me being required to put any real effort into it. And as luck would have it, that's kind of what ended up happening lol. I was "found" by someone on (oddly enough) another weight loss website I'm on. He sent me a very short and sweet private message, and I responded and we hit it off immediately, saw how much we had in common in so many ways and it snowballed into what we have going on right now. I've been talking to him since October and we finally met in February (he lives in Canada and I'm in NY soo yeah it's pretty long distance. Not ideal but...whatever. lol) He stayed for a few days in NYC and we really had an amazing time together. He gave me my first real Valentine's Day and made it really special for me. He's coming back in April and I can't wait to see him again.

Oh yeah and these were unexpectedly sent to me the other week emoticon

In much unhappier news, this coming week I have to have one of my cats put to sleep. In my last blog in July I talked about having my 17 year old cat Squeakers put to sleep unexpectedly. Just a few months later here I am again with my other 17 year old cat Sneakers. However this has been a long time coming with this cat and it's definitely time. Sneakers was diagnosed with FIV 2 years ago and is also blind in one eye (glaucoma caused by the FIV) Ever since then, his health has slowly but steadily declined. The end of January he had what appeared to be an upper respiratory infection but it turned out to be an infected tooth which turned into an abscess. The poor guy's head was so swollen, even towards the top of his head near his ear. At the vet they drained the abscess and gave him a strong dose of antibiotics and sent him home with pain killers too. He would have needed most of his teeth pulled as well as a thorough teeth cleaning but would need to be put under anethesia for that. At his age and with the FIV that's very risky. After having a full blood panel done, we also saw he's in renal failure so even if putting him under anestheia was a risk I was willing to take, they can't do that when an animal is in renal failure. Despite his issues he's still up and about and has a ravenous appetite. However I have had to bring him back to the vet at least every other week for more antibiotics and pain meds. At this point he can't keep any weight on despite eating constantly, he for some unknown reason has lost nearly all of the fur on his back, and his infection keeps coming back. At this point the abscess came back but this time on the outer part of his face and he has an open hole that will not heal/close (probably because of his compromised immune system from his age and FIV) It's apparent to me he's never going to get better and now the infection is speading to his bone. He look obviously uncomfortable to me despite the topical ointments and pain meds I've been giving him. His quality of life is so poor and it's something I know will only continue to get worse in probably a very short period of time. I've had a lot of time to think it over and after my last trip to the vet on Friday I know it's time to let him go. emoticon He's suffering at this point and it's not fair to keep him alive hanging on by a thread. Our vet makes house calls and even does euthanasia at home so I made an appointment for my vet to come over and put my poor guy to sleep to finally give him some much needed peace after this long battle with his multiple illnesses. He has been so stressed and unhappy being stuffed into his carrier every other week and going back and forth to the vet. I don't want to bring him to the vet again and have that be his last memory. This way he'll go peacefully in my arms in his home where he won't experience any stress whatsoever. It's the kindest thing I can do for him and as heart wrenching as this is for me to have to go through this again, at the same time I'm mostly at peace with it because I know there is no other option for him at this point. He was always an indoor/outdoor cat (he was rescued as a kitten from my yard) but has been indoor only ever since his FIV/glaucoma diagnosis. He lived to a ripe old age and has had a good life. It's supposed to be sunny and pretty warm this week so since he still loves to sit outside on our lawn, I'll keep him on his leash so he can enjoy the nice weather. I also bought a few packages of ground chicken and some cans of tuna. Luckily he stil has a major appetite and still gets excited over poultry and tuna so I'm going to let him feast on as much of it as he wants these next few days.

This is Sneakers in his healthier days. Makes me sad to look at this picture because it almost looks like a completely different cat

Moving on. Let's talk about weight briefly. To be completely honest I could not tell any of you when the last time I weighed myself was. I don't even know the last time I accurately tracked my food in my food journal. I know I've been snacking way too much, but I'm also very active so I don't feel like I'm gaining much, but I know I'm at least maintaining a weight that is higher than I'd like. I'm going to guess here I'm probably at or around 150 now but I'll know for sure when I weigh myself next week (I still refuse to weigh myself when TOM comes around) Either way I'll update my tracker whenever I weigh myself next. Now that the warmer weather is approaching and it will be time to start wearing short sleeve and sleeveless tops and eventually bathingsuits (ahhhhhhh!!) I would like to shave off a minimum of 10 lbs, but possibly closer to 15. I've been gauging my size/weight on how my clothes fit and nothing seems much different than it did towards the end of 2011. But then again, I wanted to lose weight all those months ago and I know for a fact I havent. I'm back to tracking today and would like to get back into that habit pretty consistently. When my weight creeps up I know tracking and calorie counting is the only way I'll successfully lose these extra pounds.

So that's pretty much it for now. Hopefully I'll get back into the blogging routine too. I miss it and I've missed all of you! I still come here and check my messages pretty often so even if I'm not posting things too often, I'm still around. I hope everyone has been well and that 2012 has been going great for all of you out there!!

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    First of all, you are SO BEAUTIFUL inside and out, and such an amazing inspiration. I am so happy for you that you've found love. You look adorable together- and very happy!

    I couldn't help crying when you talked about you kitty. It's so hard to let them go. But I think you're absolutely doing the best thing. It's so hard to accept that all of our relationships (basically) come and go. Even relationships with critters. I think it would be so great if the ones we love could always be with us, but........

    Oh yea, and on a lighter note, I LOVE the jelly bean background. Thanks for the blog and the inspiration and keep up the good work. Pam

    PS. Oh yea, I forgot to mention, I'm a nurse, and one of my favorite things about it is wearing scrubs- and you're right- they're so comfy, it's kinda like wearing pjs to work! emoticon
    3343 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/24/2012 7:05:17 PM
    Thanks for the update! We are still here. I have acutally started back in Feb. I am so sorry to hear about your cat, it's so hard when we have to put them down, so much like family! I am super happy for you that you found someone and in weight loss department! I'm not liking the dating thing, men can be well, more complicated than women. I will just say that, LOL!! Keep up the great work girl!! Love that you're living your life and enjoying it with that someone special and loving the career path!! Welcome back!!
    3343 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5971925
    So sad about your cat. I too lost two cats in the last three years and I know how important they can be in our heart...
    Congrats for your new job and new man! Funny thing is you actually physically look very much like my previous dental hygienist!
    3362 days ago
    I've been away for a long time and have just started sparking again with approx 80lbs to lose as my goal. When I looked at your picture I didn't recognise you at all...then I saw your blonde picture and it all came back! WHAT A TRANSFORMATION! Loving the brown hair!

    Thank you for reminding me that this is possible with time and effort.x
    3363 days ago
    Thanks for the update, Kristen! We missed you. You have some very exciting stuff going on with a new job and a guy!
    So very sorry to hear about your cat, but I think what you're doing for him is very kind. emoticon
    3365 days ago
    Sorry to hear about your cat - losing a pet is always tough but at least there's comfort in knowing that Sneakers is no longer in pain.

    Congratulations on your new job and new love interest... the flowers he sent are pretty!
    3365 days ago
  • no profile photo CD489708
    Losing a pet is awful! I just had to put my 10 year old dog down. It was one of the hardest decisions to make, but like your cat, it was time and I had to let her go. :( On a happier note, congrats on all the positives in your life. Your pics are cute and it doesn't look like you have gained at all!
    3365 days ago
    Welcome back! Sorry about your kitty but glad to hear many other things are going well for you. Congrats on all the good news!
    3365 days ago
    It's great to hear an update from you. I'm sorry to hear about your cat.
    3366 days ago
    I cried for your cat :( I can only imagine how painful that would feel.

    On a happier note, thank you for updating us!
    3366 days ago
    Welcome back, sweetie! Yep, we're still here, lol. So sorry to hear about your kitty. But I'm glad you're doing well otherwise. Hugs, hon!
    3366 days ago
    I love your glasses in the first picture! I am sorry to hear about your cat. I am super excited that things in the love department is coming along for you. Also, I started tracking again today too! I wish you much success! Happy to have you back!
    3366 days ago
  • JO_GEE
    So good to see an update from you! Congrats on the new job and new man! ;)
    3366 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about sneakers :( As a pet owner and lover I empathize with your pain, and commend you for doing a brave and thoughtful thing for Sneakers.


    Good luck on your new romance and the last 10-15 lbs!

    3366 days ago
    I'm glad to see you're back!!! Congrats on everything you have going on, a new job AND a new boy, you win!!!
    3366 days ago
  • HARLOW10
    I agree that scrubs are amazing. So comfortable! Congrats on the job.

    And I'm really sorry about your cat. It is so tough to do, I know.
    3366 days ago
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