I cant sleep but I am still dreaming awake
Saturday, March 31, 2012
I think it may be because of stress. Even though I am really not showing it too much it is manifesting itself in my sleeping patterns. I have been super tired during the day. I went to bed early around 10pm and woke up at 12am boo. Have not been able to fall back asleep here.
Anyways I got on the scale and I was lower then earlier, 182.6. It hit me, oh wow wait, if i keep this up I will hit my goal. I will be in my 170 or maybe even less by Phoebe's 1st birthday on the 8th of June. Then it hit me I might even hit my July goal if I can just get past 170 of being 160 by my birthday (7/22). That's just crazy. I have never pictured myself pass that. I was about 163 when Angel and I started dating. Of course I will never have the flat bellied 163 body I had back then but whoa I will be 160!!! and if I try to imagine life past 160 my head starts tripping lol. I malfunction.
I am in my day/night dreams here. It is just very exciting. I hope I am just as excited when I get there as I am now just fantasizing about it but I worry when I get there I will still be stuck mentally in 180. Only time will tell.