Friday, March 30, 2012
This week has not been so great. The worst week I've had this year. I've been feeling so lonely and isolated for some reason. I've been doubting myself a lot lately. Doubting my life choices. Not feeling very hopeful at all. Since I am an emotional eater, I spent the last two days eating all the comfort foods that I could get my hands on. It wasn't pretty. It wasn't until today I managed to stop myself. I haven't resolved the cause of my emotional eating binge yet but I did remember to ask myself why I wanted to stuff my face with chips, cheese and Tiramisu when I was driving to the grocery store. Was it because I was hungry? No, it wasn't. Would I feel better afterwards? No, I wouldn't. I didn't feel better yesterday or the day before after having indulged. All the sugary and fatty food would make me feel even more guilty and worse in general. Questioning myself and thinking about my answers worked to break the cycle for now. I didn't buy any of the bad stuff, only the good stuff and I plan to make a healthy dinner later on when I'm hungry and I'm happy about that. But I did buy a bottle of red wine!
I do need to work on my relationship with food. More importantly, I really need to work on myself.