People are Great!
Friday, March 30, 2012
I have to admit, I am one of those people that has endless faith in people, but unfortunately I have found myself becoming more cynical. It seems to almost be a defense mechanism tha tI put up and no matter how much I love and trust the person, a small part of me can't help but wonder what their underlying intentions are. I feel that I am still in the judgmental state of mind and that the only thing people see is my weight. How do you get past that, is there even a way?
I have nothing but really great support at work because everyone gets so excited, even if I haven't lost a pound because they ask me about the inches I have lost, but I can't help but feel a little off-put. Why are these people who have only known me for a year so happy for my accomplishments when people who have seen me try and fail before are not as happy? Am I too dependent on others approval?
I do admit that I have never felt this much strength behind me and know that if I do fall once, I have some to support me enough that I do not fall that far and it will be easy to get back up. I am really thankful for that because there are lots of people that do not have this type of support system and their journey is much harder.
Since starting SP on January 23rd, I have realized that the people on this website all have the same goal, the same journey, the same support system.... their teams and the community as a whole. I have tried sparkpeople before, but never followed through with it. I am so excited to actually make use of all the wonderful tools and resources available so that there are not many questions that I have that have not been answered. If I have a bad day, there are people there to send positive energy my way so that the small hiccup does not consume me. It really has changed the way I think about people (not totally yet, but getting there.) And I have found myself wanting to devote more time to looking for people who are not having a good day so that I can pay it forward.
With everyone in the same journey it gives everyone a chance to win not just individually, but as a team.