Thursday, March 29, 2012
Another day down and I'm still on track. WOW! I'm actually doing this. Changing my life. Reworking my health. Wow! Wow!! As I review this I am amazed. If I keep doing this I am going to be healthy. I'm going to get my cholesterol and high blood pressure back to normal limits. Wow! I'm eating myself to health. Just like I was eating myself to the most UNhealthy life I could be living.
And why was I eating that way? It will be no surprise to hear that I was hurt and scared. Hurt that the man I loved found a new love. Scared that after moving to an area I love, my job situation is the worst it's EVER been. I think more hurt that scared. So I have been literally stuffing my emotions. Such a sad state to be in. Now, if I eat in a healthy way then I can get stronger and maybe I can pull myself together to be happy. It isn't that I am UNhappy. Just that I am not my normal self, and I'm less happy.
I'm ready for equilibrium.