The Title is the Secret

Thursday, March 29, 2012

I’ve been hiding from you, I admit it.
I’m not proud of my recent behavior.
Cookies have been involved.
Gluten-free cookies, but cookies nonetheless.
I’ve been doing a little wallowing in self-pity, I must admit. I’ve been feeling sorry for myself since Saturday, which I spent the entirety of in gastric misery. I’ve been fine, since then, other than the occasional unhappy gurgle.
The reason I’m fine seems to be because I’ve cut out caffeine.
I’m incredibly dopey.
I’m not sure how, or if, those two things are related, but I’ve wanted to eat everything in the house! And the problem is, I HAVE! I ate cookies! Gluten-free vanilla Oreos. They were surprisingly yummy. So yummy that I had more than the two I planned on. I didn’t make it out of the first row in the bag, but it was a near thing. *sigh*
And then yesterday, I started off well enough. Kept to my menu, even though I was starving all day... but at lunch, I was still hungry. So I ate half of a thinkThin Brownie Crunch bar. Finished work, went to the grocery store. Then I got home, and I ate my salad, like I planned to. And I’d decided I was going to drag out the Foreman and make a turkey burger, and that’s where it all went horribly wrong. Maybe it was because the burger was a little freezer-burned, or I just didn’t do a very good job cooking it, or what; it wasn’t very tasty, that’s what I know. I made it through about two thirds of it, and that was it. The tummy didn’t much care for it, either; lots of loud noises from the peanut gallery. But I was still hungry. So I had a (GF) matzo. With margarine. And I was STILL hungry. So I had a wedge of Laughing Cow queso with chipotle. And then I finished it off with a Skinny Cow Caramel Truffle bar.
I had a more than 2000 calorie intake yesterday.
It wasn’t exactly shocking when the scale moved in the wrong direction this morning. Actually, I was surprised it didn’t go up by further than it did. We probably have Coach Nicole to thank for that.
Yep. Did Day 2 of the 28 Day Boot Camp DVD yesterday. Should have been the rest day following Day 2, but Day 2 was supplanted by a Delaware Valley Bead Society Meeting. So Tuesday ended up being the rest day, and Wednesday was the Short Cardio-Sculpt program. Which means today should be a Cardio Burst Day, and then Saturday’ll be another Short Cardio-Sculpt, and then Sunday will be a rest/cross-train day, which works for me.
I have to say, so far... not actually loving the DVD. I’ve used the YouTube Coach Nicole videos for ages, so I consider myself relatively familiar with how she does things; this video feels wrong. For one thing, there’s no mention of “You can hold onto a chair if you have balance issues for this,” which I’m a big fan of in her online videos. This video seems to assume you’ve got good balance and flexibility - I don’t. I don’t like that the two women doing the modified advanced and easy versions of the exercises, behind Coach Nicole, are in the SAME EXACT COLOR, and both have dark hair in identical ponytails. I don’t like the cutsey flourish thrown in anytime you’re supposed to put your hands on your hips. And Coach Nicole herself just doesn’t seem as comfortable in the DVD as she always has in the SP videos; she seems stiffer and more formal. One of the things I’ve always liked about Coach Nicole’s videos is that they’re so... normal. It’s like working out with someone you know. The DVD doesn’t really feel that way, to me.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m going to keep at it. I’m just a bit disappointed, is all.
Anyway, so... yeah. That’s been the last few days. I haven’t blogged because I was busy, but I also didn’t really want to talk about the fact that I was eating like a pig. Nor did I have an overwhelming desire to post pictures of my Body Cop charts.
I did learn a really nifty way to use PearlEx powder to ombre your epoxy clay, so I’m dying to try it out; if I have time tonight, I really hope to work on that. If not, I’m going to start making pairs of the black earrings with the abalone shell drops. Except probably not with abalone; I’ll use other stuff. But I made a pair for myself the other day (with blood-red and black Chinese crystals, to match a necklace I bought at Lane Bryant last year), and they came out really quite well, so it’s time to get to work on making them for people who AREN’T me. I even got complimented on the abalone ones at the bead society meeting, which pretty much made my day. It’s one thing to get compliments from my co-workers; they don’t know anything about this stuff. But the bead society people do, and they thought they were cool. Gave me quite the thrill. :-)
I can’t find my titanium flat-pad posts, which is bugging the heck out of me. I was all ready to make some rose studs the other day, and I couldn’t find the stupid posts! I hate that I’m so disorganized. I’m working on it, at least regarding the beading stuff, but apparently those got moved before I got all organize-y last Saturday. I probably put them someplace “safe.” *sigh*
Still waiting for the tax money to drop. Clearly that’s not going to happen in time for me to get a tax ID# prior to the bead show this weekend, which stinks, but what’re you gonna do? The only thing that bothers me is that I would really, really like to buy Niobium stuff from this woman whose work I admire immensely (she’s in the bead society, and I think she’s scared of me because I have a bit of a hero worship thing going on there), but it’s just too expensive. I don’t begrudge her the money (this IS her day job; I’m just a poser!), and I’ve certainly given her a bunch of it over the years (and that was before I was in a bead society with her), but I just don’t have it to spend. So I’m going to have to order it online (even then, it ain’t cheap; almost $10 for 20 headpins. STERLING SILVER headpins are cheaper. Seriously. But since she’s charging $4 for 4 pins... yeah, it’s going to have to be online. And you really can’t beat this stuff for hypoallergenicness), when the time comes. And it’s coming pretty soon, because I don’t think the nickel-free headpins I bought off etsy are going to do the trick. They’re what I used to make the copper earrings with the goldstone beads, and they were IMPOSSIBLE to wrap well. It’s going to have to be the niobium. Regardless, I should be able to get all sorts of pretty beads and things, which is always nice. It’ll probably also mean another trip to Michael’s for bead containers; I’m out. Well, I’m out of non-dedicated, anyway; everything I’ve got that doesn’t already have stuff in it is intended for a specific use (e.g. more Swarovski rounds for rings, or more Swarovski or Preciosa chatons for the epoxy clay projects). Maybe I’ll even find some nifty metal clay stuff; who knows? I was never into it before, so I never paid too much attention to what might be there for it. Heh.
Of course, the hard part, as always, will be not spending the war debt. Having the tax ID would be helpful on that front, but... well, yeah. It’s easy to spend a lot at these shows. But the thing I have to keep in mind is, just because it’s pretty, doesn’t mean I can’t find it cheaper online. What I want to keep an eye out for is relatively high-quality gemstone strands; I got some truly beautiful amethyst, and tigers eye strands the last time. And of course, the Chinese crystal. It bothers me a little to buy that, since it’s not as high-quality as the Swarovski stuff. But it does mean that when I’m finally making and selling, I’m able to charge a lower price for the products I make with it. And I plan to post clearly that it’s made with Chinese crystal.
Sorry. My weight loss journey blogs keep being overpowered by my eagerness to start on my jewelry-making journey, don’t they? That said, my weight loss journey pretty much keeps being subsumed by my jewelry-making journey. Though to be fair, that’s as much because of health stuff as anything else.
And yes, I am the queen of excuses. But at least I’m well aware of that fact.
OK, I’ve managed to do a remarkably good job of squandering today away. I’m cool with that. The last couple of days were pretty stressful; for a change, I welcomed having not much to do.
I have COMPLETELY OBEYED MY MENU. And I haven’t been hungry, or at least, no more than usual. So, that’s good. One hopes it won’t end in a crazy binge when I get home. I’m going to try Foreman grilling a piece of chicken I marinaded and froze a month or so ago, so... hopefully it’s in better shape than the turkey. That, plus some rice, a salad, an a sugar-free pudding cup with fat-free Reddi-Whip, should readily fulfill my food needs.
And then... jewelry! Yaaaay!
Can’t wait for the tax check to come. Can’t wait to Get. This. Show. Started.
Have a great day, everyone.
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    Last weekend or so I finally flipped through a bead jewelry book I bought like two years ago emoticon and excitedly jotted down all these supplies I NEED -- RIGHT NOW! But of course there the list sits, on my fridge, for lack of time and cash. I understand your plight!

    I've had the same insatiable hunger for nearly two weeks now! Generally I agree with DJ4HEALTH's water trick (or sometimes green tea) but even that wasn't working for me. So maybe it's in the air all over the country. emoticon
    2606 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/30/2012 1:59:27 PM
    It could be that you are really thirsty and not hungry. Next time drink a large glass of water and see what happens. Sometimes our bodies can not tell if it wants water or food. Most times it is water and not food so try it the next time you have that hunger.
    2607 days ago
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