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Thursday, March 29, 2012

I'm barely hanging in there.

I mean barely.

This week has been a huge struggle with me. I have had huge family drama. I got into a stupid argument with my sisters and nieces. It was stupid, I didn't cause it, and I am not going to apologize for something I didn't cause. Then I found out that my boyfriend who is the breadwinner, by a landslide in my house, is going to lose his job within a year. The factory he works for is closing and moving to Alabama. He has heard rumors that they are going to offer him double his salary now to move and work at the new factory. I say no. I have lived here all my life, my entire family is here, my friends are here, and all my children's friends are here. We know nothing and no one in Alabama and I refuse to move. The company is also rumored to give him a nice severance package, but he is only thinking about the money he would be making if he takes the AL job, and not how such a move would affect us all. It's been stressful, and caused 2 arguments so far, and I am really not looking forward to the next few months.

Plus, it's TOM.

I have started reading Joyce Meyer's "The Battlefield of The Mind" and I am really trying to rid myself of negative thoughts. I am also trying very hard to study the Bible everyday and make God a part of my daily life, through bible study, and prayer.

I also am job hunting for a teaching job. It takes a great deal of time to search, fill out applications, contact superintendents and Principals, put together and distribute your portfolio....It's endless.

It's soccer season, and I have been gone 3 nights this week in addition to working during the day, which means my house looks like a tornado went through it. :
I also am wanting to start writing again. Not just in my little blog here, but to write down the stories I have bouncing around in my head.

On top of that, I am a mother to 4 kids.

I am feeling overwhelmed and don't know how to deal with all this stress....and workout too!

My food intake has been horrible. I have been eating out more since I am not at home as much and I haven't always make the best choices.

My goal for the next week is to make better choices, workout more, stay on plan, and be here every single day!
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    OMG you are SO SO SO blessed to have a "breadwinner" who CAN earn double his salary! My husband's job disappeared 8 years ago - I am the sole support of my household and my mother's - my husband is way to old to be hired by anyone now. He looked daily for 5 years and never got a nibble - due to age!!!! Relocating is difficult - but having NO money and NO remaining credit and no hope and no help is worse. It does sound like you have emergency support (family) where you are - so that leaves options open to you. I have no one on this planet that would or could help me financially. No one. No family. No friends who are not struggling too. No one. Please think very hard before you decide to pass up a pure golden opportunity to have enough money. If you have that, you are free to travel. You are free to visit. You are FREE!!!! If you have nothing, it is SO hard to cling to hope and faith. SO very hard. Thank God every single day for options. Take the options - try it. You can always go back. But if you pass up the opportunity, it may not knock again. Believe me, even though it is a year away, I would already be packing. I gained weight when I lived for MONTHS at a time on nothing but Ramen noodles - my one treat a week was one dollar burger at McDonald's. I worked overtime every day for the money, commuted 2 hours, could never sleep due to stress and gained weight while totally UNDEREATING for years. Now I work for a company that is desperately struggling to survive, it hasn't paid me since October 28th, we are losing the office because they haven't paid the rent and I have nowhere to turn. Living on cash advances - almost at the end of all the credit lines. PLEASE think long and hard before you let your man pass up an opportunity that will give you more than you have now plus some real financial security. I will pray for you, too.
    2247 days ago
    Yes, there are those times when we struggle. The key is to give the situation to God and find out what HE wants us to do.

    For years there was a situation in which I struggled. Finally, the breaking point came and I just followed what God led me to do, which sometimes was pretty scary. I ended up without a husband, but with my 6 children and our pets, over 3000 miles away from what was familiar and known. But HE guided me every step, and I certainly don't regret it.

    What is somewhat amusing is that now my ex and I get along reasonably well -- 3000 miles apart.
    2247 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/29/2012 4:31:08 PM
  • SUE5007
    Cute title. ;)

    I would just try to keep the diet in check since soccer games make life so busy! Make a goal to always plan ahead to have grab-n-go foods like clementines, apples, peanut butter crackers and water bottles on hand if you have to literally run out of the house. You could even make a giant salad, and grill up some chicken and keep them in the fridge. When it's time for a game fill a tupperware container with some of the salad, throw some chicken on top, snap on a lid and go!

    Get in a walk during the game if you can, but you'll have more control over what you're eating than anything else.

    Balancing a busy life is a full time job. Good luck, keep your head up. emoticon
    2247 days ago
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