First Time in a Swimsuit This Year!
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
It's a good thing I committed to my kids and my daycare mom that I was taking the kids to the pool today or else I WOULDN'T have done it!!!
I dug out my swimsuit, shaved off the winter growth from my legs and DID IT!
We had a great time!
The pool has various depths and activities. I kept the three youngest (4,3,1) in the one foot area with slides, dumping buckets and other fun things. I got my workout in! The one year old didn't want to walk in the water so I ended up carrying him most of the time for the first hour. His sister, the 3yo, was all OVER the place! I felt like I spent most of my time chasing her down.
Normally when I go to a pool I can hurry from the changing room and get into the pool where I can hide my largeness and fat. Well at this pool it was all out for everyone to see. Standing in one foot of water doesn't hide much. But I didn't allow myself to dwell on it. I told myself I was there to have fun and I deserved to be there and have fun as much as the skinny bikini clad moms did.
I'm hoping that taking that step will help me come out of my funk. I can feel the desire to make a full comeback cracking open. I think it's still something I'll have to force open with my actions. I think right now the action will have to come before the desire!