Crap what happened to my will power?
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
I need to vent! I need to let it out! I don't know what's going on. I was doing so good last week. I had wonderful will power, I was sticking to my plan. But for some reason this week I just haven't been able to stick with my goals.
I do think I might be reacting too harshly because even though I haven't stuck to my plan I haven't been anywhere near my horrible habits from last month. I haven't truly binged on anything or stuffed myself every meal. It's just that for some reason this week I've had the munchies. I usually get that around my period but I still have like 2 1/2 weeks before that. Monday I was good but then yersterday I gave into eating flour tortillas and fatty meat for lunch and dinner. Not huge portions but I still feel guilty fo giving in. THen I had some Canela tea(cinnamon tea). ANd today I was doing good until I gave in to eating 2 slices of carrot cake with frosting. Arrrrrrrrrr!
I had just come from a bad weekend and was trying to be super strict so that I could brake the 170 and maybe creep into the 160s! Arrrrr so mad at myself. I'm sick of feeling so fat and of not being able to wear any of my clothes! T-shirts and stretch pants are not my favorite look and I'm getting tired of it!
The weekend is almost coming and I'm really bad with weekends. I need a good kick in the butt and I need to get back with the program. I need to melt these longas (belly rolls) away!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!