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Happy Birthday to....

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

.... ME!! lol! but seriously...
SO.... it was me b'day yesterday (you - oh happy birthday! me - thanks!! that means a lot! you - oh it's nothing, for you?! me - awww... that's so sweet, I'm so lucky to have friends like you :) you - well it's easy to be such a good friend to such a wonderful person! me- omg, you're gonna make me blush! you are too kind! you- speaking of blush that's a great color on you! me - ok, now just stop, you are being silly! you- oh... you're right! the both of us- HA HA HA HA!)
sorry about that....
anyway I decided to take a little break from my 'diet' yesterday b/c i knew i wasn't going to be 'good.' funny how that worked out. In the past i would gorge myself b/c that's what you can do at an all you can eat steak house, right? Apparently I learned that if i do that, I can't enjoy the rest of my night. So Friday night when about 20 of my friends & i were enjoying the Chursacaria Rodizo (Brazilian steakhouse that i TOTALLY spelled wrong) i was selective in what meats to enjoy & I didn't eat it everything on my plate. I DID fill up on those yummy veggies at the salad bar & even tho it was all you can eat STEAK.... i enjoyed my meal :) it was the company that made it awesome, not the food & while the dinner was good... i left there feeling a LOT better than i thought. i have to say, i was proud of myself.

so yesterday? lunch was ok, the food was decent, i ate some, then brought most of it home. it was the perfect size lunch :)
dinner? Italian restaurants serve WAY too much but i also brought that home.
selections? well lunch was filet tips w/ veggies (mushrooms, sun dried tomatoes, artichoke hearst & potatoes. didn't eat the potatoes)
dinner was lobster ravioli in cream sauce. yum. but i only had 3. later tonight for dinner, i will have the other 3 :)

so, the selections weren't the best BUT i kept the portions smaller, so I can see i am making some head way. which leads me to.... my shout out to SDJ

(I seriously should get paid for this....)
John sent me a link to his blog on starting over. or maybe NOT starting over. He made some good points about what we learned along our journey & it got me thinking, by george, he's right. damn it. emoticon
so of course I got thinking... I guess in some ways I am not starting over, i am just picking back up again b/c I have all the knowledge I learned along the way. Sadly, what i don't have this time is the motivation. For this i blame my dear boy friend emoticon he still loves this fat a$$ of mine. I think we will have to talk about this...
JUST KIDDING!! emoticon
Well, he DOES still love me but he doesn't really motivate me... what i mean by that is (insert stupid excuse here....) my weight is not his problem. My weight is MY problem & my lack of motivation comes from KNOWING that I am loved even though I don't love myself. this needs to change. I'm not saying that I am down on myself, NO, not by any means, i'm WAY too obnoxious for that, PLEASE. but I have a reason to be lazy.
So yesterday I celebrated 37 years of life & it got me thinking. It took me a LONG time to find an AMAZING man who treats me better than most PEOPLE have treated me for a good portion of my life. (high school was HELL). He may love me w/ the love handles & a little giggle BUT, i don't love myself like this. I owe it to him... to ME to do something about it.
so i did :)
I went to the gym today. no class, no one saying, hey, we really need to go (I lined up a few gym buddies around my office). just me. my belated birthday present.. emoticon emoticon emoticon

oh btw... mahalo SparkPeople for that awesome mobil app to log my food AND fitness. You rock!
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  • ROSENJ1965
    Do it for you first and the rest will follow. I know "he" TRULY cares for you and you should, too. If you can't use him for motivation on the eating end, use him for motivation to get out and do all of the active things you both enjoy!

    I think you've hit on the nailhead where I've gotten to as well - why, yes, that diner-sized or Italian-sized or "whatever"-sized meal is huge and delicous but, hey, part of it will be delicious now and the rest will be delicious for another meal, or even two, or maybe even three at times (!!!). And that also appeals to the money-watching side of me - 2-4 meals for the price of one, heck, yeah!

    No, I'll never be the "perfect" healthy eater. I'll add some fruits and veggies where I can and try to make whole grain, lean meat, healthy side choices, but... There will be those meals or even days where I don't. My only recourse, then, is moderation and portion control. Don't try to give up what I enjoy, but do keep it to a reasonable amount - and then I end up getting to enjoy it again (without that bloated, omg, that was just TOO much feeling either time). Win win!

    P.S., I'm glad you found "him"... I think you both were due a great person in your lives and you seem to work well together. Happy birthday again!
    2278 days ago
    WAY TO SEND A SUBTLE HINT FOR A BIRTHDAY GREETING!!!!! But happy belated birthday to you from an old 64 year-old fat lady who really wouldn't want to experience being 37 again. That's when I started gaining my weight. At least you are attacking it now while you are young! Good luck to you and many many more happy birthdays!
    2278 days ago
    Happy Birthday!!!
    2278 days ago
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