Change doesn't just happen by hoping.
Monday, March 26, 2012
I've been fooling myself for a while now. I've been hoping that I'd somehow just start living healthy. I mean after all, I know HOW to eat right and exercise. I just don't DO it. So I kept hoping every night that I wouldn't binge. Every day I hoped I'd find time to get in that 10 minutes of devoted exercise.
I'm a very active person. I burn over 2000 calories most days just doing my jobs. But setting aside time for myself to exercise my heart is different. I need that. Setting aside time to stuff earbuds in and listen to something other than, "I want," and "Would you," and "I need, " and "waaaaaaaah wah wah," is critical.
These things aren't going to just happen. I'm not going to be folding clothes on the sofa and my earbuds just fly into my ears and I burst into dance like in some kooky musical. No, I'm going to need to plan for it. Or at the very least make a routine that includes it.
And binge eating? I don't know for sure how to stop that yet. I have various strategies in my quiver, but haven't figured out how to nail that apple instead of a bag of chips. I'll WORK on it though. I won't just sit around HOPING it will change. I will priortize myself.
Yes. I'm going to behave as if the plane is going down and I have to put the oxygen mask on myself before attempting to help others. It makes sense, right? How can you help anyone if you aren't breathing?!
Metaphor. Yes. But seriously appropriate.
Today I will do what I need to do to live. Not just survive. Live.