Saturday, March 24, 2012
I didn't mention it but my daughter's father came to visit a couple of days ago. We had a lot of fun. He's doing much better in his life right now than he was before. I'm doing better too. I can't help but imagine us getting back together and starting over again. The attraction is still there the only problem is that he lives 2 hours away. Plus we're both very busy with school and he works too.
My point in bringing this up is that I've been missing him a lot since he went back home, and have been really stressed about our situation. It's making me want to just eat and eat and eat. I'm not motivated to go work out either. I've only worked out twice this week. I've been preoccupied with missing him, he really threw me for a loop by coming to visit and being so good to us.
I just have to stay focused. I can't let stress get me off track.
I was looking at before and after pics of myself. I'm definitely seeing a difference. That should be motivation enough, but it isn't. I haven't given in to my cravings yet, and after writing this hopefully I won't. Hopefully I'll stop sulking and get up and go to the gym. I just have to do it without thinking so much about it. And that's what I'll do......