Just Wanted To Say
Saturday, March 24, 2012
I don't know where all of you stand on issues of faith and I obviously don't know you or your lives, what you have been through, and I know that you only know me as far as this blog and this page. I can only speak from my own experience, but I can say without a moment of wavering, without a second thought, without any consideration, that without Jesus Christ I would be literally dead and if not physically, I would still be living in a hell that I couldn't begin to describe right now. Bound up in fear, pain, grief, and hatred. Living life locked in a cage that I reinforced on a daily basis and, sadly, this was me as a Christian.
It was a lot of years hitting bottom in a very deep pit, breathing a lot of sand, before I turned back to Jesus and finally found freedom like fresh air, joy like I had never known before. My life was changed, is changed. I still struggle, I fall down a lot. I fail. Frankly, I am a grand mess, but there is a beautiful, indescribable sweetness in knowing that I am forgiven and loved regardless. I know you may have rolled your eyes reading this, but I just wanted to say, that this life isn't everything and that nothing will make you happy, except Jesus. Things can act as temporary band-aids, even providing what seems like happiness, what seems like contentment, but without Jesus Christ there will always be a hole and it can't be filled any other way.
I just wanted to say that Jesus loves you. He died for you. He rose for you. Do with this what you wish. I just wanted to say that there really is no other way and He is the truth, He wants to restore you, and He wants to give you freedom.
I am finding myself lost in thought tonight. Standing on the brink. All of this, everything, it doesn't matter. Jesus is it. Everything. All sides. Every angle. Sigh. I lose sight of that fact far too easily.
Thank you Lord for loving me anyway and never, ever letting me go.