Tuesday, March 20, 2012
I had a major meltdown today. I was tired, feeling a little overwhelmed, hormonal, and missing my mom. I got a couple of e-mails about schedules that was just like the straw that broke the camel's back -- it was minor but it just brought tears of frustration. I just was beginning to cry and a friend called (God's providence) and she sensed that something was wrong - so she got an ear full of tears. I haven't had something like this happen in a long time.
Needless to say, I didn't exercise this afternoon like I planned and I went for the chocolate. But I am not beating myself up about it. It is past and I will go on.
I wasn't going to go to Women's Bible Study, but decided to anyway. It was good. We had a good discussion and prayer time.
Part of my frustration, is that I work so hard with exercise and eating right and I am not losing - just staying in a rut. I thought I had broken my plateau a few weeks ago. I did - but I am back on another one and haven't been able to lose since I had that big loss. I think it has to do so much with menopause and after some reading maybe even adrenal fatigue. I am still researching and trying to decide what to do.
Well, it is late and I am tired - time to head for bed.