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Lost A Day....

Monday, March 19, 2012

I'm Type 1 Diabetic, on insulin to keep me alive. I ate fruit for breakfast today and took a little insulin b/c fruit is sweet. But, decided to lie back down and take a nap and never got up! My husband came home b/c he could not reach me on the phone. He had to give me a glucagon shot which essentially is a shot of glucose. So much for a sweet tooth challenge when I have to get a shot of glucose just to bring me 'round! This was 4:30 whenhe came home and rescued me.

Now I feel totally wrung out and wiped out! Insulin shock is just that.... Your body goes into shock. So, when I do come around I am sweaty, but freezing and my muscles are all stiff from me tightening them up and frankly, I stink. I sweat so much and it isn't even a natural smelling sweat. It just stinks. I haven't gathered the energy to take a shower yet.

But, do you know what I did? Once I ate a little something and got my wits about me and gathered up some energy, I did my 1 mile walk with Leslie Samsone! Am I addicted to exercise or what? I still want to get some more exercise in, but don't know what I will get to today.... I'm supposed to do my 100 push-up training workout today and don't know if I have that kind of strength or not. I suppose I'll try.

I know other diabetics will get mad at this, but I've been diabetic since age 3. I'll be 47 in June. I'm sick of it. I don't like checking my sugar all the time. I don't like low blood sugars stealing an entire day away from me. I don't like high blood sugars stealing bodily functions, like eyesight, away from me. I'm sick and tired of being a diabetic. Do you hear me? I am sick-and-tired-of-being-a-diab
etic!! Am I having a pity party right now? You betcha!
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  • CANDOK1260
    all i want to domfor you is give you emoticon and tell you emoticon . know none what someone else like is life so you what your think is right asnd feel how you feel. only you can live your life.
    2219 days ago
    Life just isn't fair and sometimes you need to shout and swing at the world. Get it out, you will feel better. Thankfully hubby is in tune and made a timely appearance. You are doing so many healthy things for yourself, it has to benefit your diabetes management. You have had a rough day. After a good shower and evening with loved ones I hope your heart is lighter.

    P.S. On a side note, I love your colors. Lavender and orange hmm....
    2221 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/20/2012 3:34:19 PM
    Hope you recover quickly, Melissa. You didn't lose a day really - you got in a walk, that's amazing! Your perseverance is inspiring!
    2221 days ago
    Awe, sorry you are down sweetie. Pity party is okay every once in a while, especially with the cards you were dealt Melissa. Also, I don't blame you for being sick of it, I would be too. I am thinking by the time you read this you will already feel better, but just in case, remember we r your emoticon emoticon

    Sending you some big emoticon . & emoticon
    2222 days ago
    I am not mad Melissa, I certainly understand how you feel
    2222 days ago
    I don't think anyone should get mad about you expressing your feelings about being a diabetic. They are not in your shoes, so they do not know what you have been going through because of the diabetes.

    I am here if you ever feel like venting!!

    2222 days ago
    Melissa, I am so sorry to hear that you lost a day, but thankful that Anthony saved the day. I don't blame you for being tired of being a diabetic. I don't think anyone should get mad at you for telling the truth. I wish I could do more for you than just being a Spark friend! emoticon emoticon
    2222 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2012 7:53:48 PM
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