JESSICA2140

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Square one-ing the SP stuff...

Monday, March 19, 2012

I had to take the last week off of carb cycling and exercising because of my stupid germs...and I used the time to do some thinking about my fitness goals. When I started using SP last May, I just wanted to lose some weight. I didn't care how much or how quickly...I just had this burning need to do SOMETHING about the ever increasing number on the scale. When I started, I did EXACTLY what SP recommended...logged all of my food, ate to their caloric ranges, read articles, etc. It worked WELL for the first 7 months...and then I hit the wall. Not so much a lack of improvement in fitness...but a stop to the downward decline of the scale. A normal, healthy part of weight loss...but highly irritating nonetheless. So I started playing with my ranges, exercises, diet, etc. and while I've learned a TON of good stuff...I've also been driving myself slowly insane in trying to make all of the conflicting information/opinions balance.

This last week I've decided...I'm over it. There is no way to make everyone/everything agree...I've tried and failed. :) I"ve come to the conclusion that I'm overthinking the bejezus out of the whole weight loss/healthy living thing, and it's sucking every last bit of fun out of it for me. Instead of working out because I like it, I'm doing it because I want to hit a 2,000+ cal/day burn. Instead of enjoying my meals, I'm obsessing about nutrition content. And I HATE it. Instead of reading for entertainment, I'm trying to assess every word in print about health and fitness. It's just not healthy, and I'm DONE DOING IT!!

New plan for myself: simplify, simplify, simplify.

Long term goal: Get out of the obese category and into the overweight category (which for me is under 207).

Short term goals:
1. Log food, eat to SP's base ranges for the next week. (Meaning, I'm not going to account for extra exercising or anything in my caloric ranges). See what it does for this plateau.
2. Stop obsessing about nutritional perfection. There is no such thing.
3. Workout when I feel like it and only because it is fun...no schedules, no rules, no training. I'm just going to be active because I like it when I want to do it.


Having a little time off from SP has made me realize that I've turned this journey to a healthier lifestyle into a chore...and it's making me not want to do it. So I'm hitting this back at square one and I'm going to try to refind the joy in this journey!!

Editing to include short term goal #4--stop comparing my progress to that of others. It doesn't actually matter if I lose more or less than anyone else...it's not a contest, it's a journey and I've been forgetting this lately!!
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  • GLACIERLILY
    BRAVO!

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    2397 days ago
  • BRAVENEWGRL
    Great blog - I so agree that you can make yourself crazy. But basically - calories in, calories out. That's what works!

    You can do it :)
    2397 days ago
  • GOURMETLOSER
    Sounds perfect. Very healthy and liberating
    2401 days ago
  • THESHELBSTER
    I LOVE the way you said, "it is not a co ntest it is a journey." Truer words could not be spoken. You have to do what is right for you, not somebody else's version or what the sparkbot says. You are awesome and you will continue to be awesome doing it YOUR way.
    2402 days ago
  • JOEYKTTN
    love your goals! I struggle with not falling into the obsessive analyzing & expecting perfection too. It *is* a journey, unique to each one who decides to embark on it. Keeping the fun in it is half the battle, right?
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    2407 days ago
  • CYNDERROSE
    Great plan.
    2408 days ago
  • ROOBEARZ
    Great refocusing!! It is so true that you have to make it fun and do it -that is,exercise - and eat healthy, because you feel like it -because you want to- because you enjoy it. I'm really not able to make myself do something I don't like for long. I also agree with your plan to simplify. It works for me, anyway. I just don't have the time or desire to make it complicated - too much work and effort. Here's to fantastic success for you!!! I hope all goes well for you on the home front -been thinking about you emoticon

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    2408 days ago
  • BITTERSWEET100
    Woohoo!!!! YAY!!!!! I am so happy for you! Isn't it cool you can just do exercise for fun now? You did all the hard work of getting into shape, now you get to enjoy all those well toned muscles.

    I too over analyze everything. Turn myself into a little science project. so I can relate and try very hard to back off when I start!

    I think about you often and hope things are working out at least a little in your favor.

    Enjoy and take care.
    2408 days ago
  • PNUTSMOM02
    Welcome to square one! Enjoy the journey. So glad that you've decided to put the fun back into your healthy living plan - it'll stick bettr that way (not that you aren't a driven, focussed woman to begin with).

    Spring is coming, a good excuse to get outside and enjoy the fresh air, and take the kids for a bike ride or a game of tag at the park.

    Have fun (and have some chocolate now and then)
    2409 days ago
  • JANDK156
    Good. Now get back in Elite where you are loved and missed! emoticon

    (and answer your mail LOL!)
    2409 days ago
  • HANDYV
    Such great thoughts. I think this is just what I needed to read. You just have no ideal.
    2409 days ago
  • ERINMCGEE
    i had the same revelation not too long ago also and its so true! there are so many different ways to go about your journey and one person's success story is going to be another's and there is nothing wrong with that. i like that you're trying to focus on enjoying the journey and being active just because. i think thats a very healthy mindset and will probably be more successful for you than anything else. i think that if we don't take the time to appreciate the journey our likelihood of sticking with it drops. hope you enjoy your new approach and start to see that scale move down again!
    2409 days ago
  • STACIEPETE
    I'm so with you on this. I came to the same conclusion today myself.
    2409 days ago
  • LINOVER
    Sounds like a great plan!
    2409 days ago
  • KARENDEE4
    I love this blog!!

    So glad you are back too. I hope you feel better.

    You always try so hard too! I know you work hard and the scale does not cooperate.
    I am impressed how hard you work during a plateau. It takes a lot of patience!
    2409 days ago
  • DELHSI
    I love this. I haven't hit a wall (yet, but I'm sure it will come) but I've certainly done some tripping over bumps. Trying to do this the right way can be quite a fun sucker - that I have noticed. And there is so much information (much contradicting) that trying to figure out what the 'right' thing to do can consume so much of us.

    You're right that there is no such thing as nutritional perfection and we shouldn't compare ourselves (our weight loss) to others - something I caught myself doing even today emoticon

    Keep up the great work - I hope you blog again with updates.

    ~Della
    2409 days ago
  • PANDASUE2
    Yep, great ideas. There are weeks that I am like that, where I super obsess and it makes me crazy and really does make the whole thing no fun or just a big chore that I don't wanna deal with anymore. Just do your exercising and eat in your calorie range and you'll see results :-)
    2409 days ago
  • CALIPIDGIOUS
    I went through this last summer. I realized that my every waking moment that I wasn't planning on what I was eating or planning on my exercise, then cooking my food and doing the exercise and working left no time for me. I stopped reading, watching any tv or movies, no games, no fun. It left me absolutely drained and not really interested in doing it anymore.

    I got sick right about the same time with the small intestinal bacterial overgrowth and due to the fact that it took 4 months to get a diagnosis and therefore treatment, I was simply eating what didn't hurt and exercising minimally. I managed to maintain during that time but no real losses.

    Now that I am about a month outside of diagnosis and 3/4 of the way through the course of antibiotics I have to take (250mg/4 x a day-blech) I am starting to feel a bit better. (she says as she knocks on wood) With that comes the realization that I need to re-motivate. Find that spark again.

    I have been doing research on low GI because I am insulin resistant and now am faced with learning another 'new' way to eat. It's frustrating and a buzz kill.

    I sympathize and hope that this less strict regimen helps to bring the joy back into your journey!
    2409 days ago
  • ZANNBEE
    Love the refocus. Great blog. Exercise because it's good for you and it makes you feel good. Weight loss is the bonus. Glad to see you back.
    2409 days ago
  • TYANDCARSMOM
    That is a very good way to look at it. I agree with you in that trying to be a "super Sparker" the joy of changing our lifestyles into healthy ones is no longer FUN. There is enough stress in our lives.... family, work, money, etc. Living a healthy life in order to get the Evil Scale Troll to show a lower number everytime you get on the scale shouldn't be another stressor... especially if said healthy ways are to be our "new lifestyle" and not a "quick fix".

    Have a good week. I am sidelined from exercise for the next 3 weeks due to a stress fracture in my leg - so it will be interesting to see how following the SP range for food works. Especially since I can't do any weight-bearing exercise - thankfully I can do pilates/yoga.
    2409 days ago
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