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One Year Today .

Sunday, March 18, 2012

One year today marks the day since my husband of 38 yrs passed away. This year has had its ups and downs and really has been an emotional struggle not only for me but the kids and my entire family. I have not been able to concentrate on SP or my commitment to lose weight, exercise or eat as healthy as I should. I guess this is normal and while I do not think things will suddenly get easier because I have passed the one year mark, I do hope I can get back on track little by little if for no other reason but because I need to be here for my kids. I know I need to do this for ME, but somehow that does not seem like enough motivation right now. I promise myself tonight I will do better and each day that I do better will lead to one more day that I do better. I miss him terribly, but I know that will never change, but I must.
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    This is month seven without my wife. Some things are hard to do. I hope Spring weather helps us all out! Keep working on it, and I will too. emoticon
    1892 days ago
  • CANAM59
    I am SO SORRY to hear of your loss. I've been out of circulation for a while, now back at WW and determined more than ever to actually lose this weight. You have reminded me once again how life can change in a heartbeat. My thoughts are with you. Drop me an email if you get a chance.
    2181 days ago
    I am praying for you and your family as I know it is difficult for all - each person grieves in their own special way - you are doing great with buying a house and being with your kids ! There will be strong days and others - well - not so much -but you are strong --

    WE all have our ways of grieving - mine is "the show must go on" - my son's is introspection - my DD is crying and not talking about it - etc.

    Blessings to you!

    2250 days ago
    I know Nancy, I just always have a hard time reaching out when I should, I usually suffer in silence and then when feeling better, open up and tell people about how bad it has been. Thanks for wanting to be there for me, I knew you would be if I reached out.
    2258 days ago
    emoticon You know there will be good days and bad days. And know that I am here for you if you need someone to talk to.
    2259 days ago
    Thank you for the lovely and inspiring comments and prayers. It is helpful to remind me just how much I have accomplished this past year. With the help of my son who is 19 yrs and daughter who is 23, we have moved from a rental home to a home I am buying and all that goes with it. Most all what it tells me if even tho I do not have my life partner, I do still have my kids and together we will do this thing called life together and that is good. I know I will have adjustments as it will be in the next few years as they will want to move out on their own, but hopefully by then, mom will be ready.

    Again, thanks, words of support go a long way. Sending prayers of thanks right back to all those who have taken the time to pray for me.

    2260 days ago
    I can feel your pain.My sorrow has been renewed with spring coming.My husband and I always planned the garden together and He was so good at getting it ready.
    I have no idea how well I`ll do since I will do most of this myself this year.
    You are in my prayers.
    2260 days ago
    Sometimes we need these calendar marking days to climb up a mental step. You can say I've made it through one whole year..I survived...it wasn't easy...and wasn't pretty...but I DID it.

    Now, you have to just continue to get through each day,by getting enough sleep, eating smart, and getting up every morning, and living the best life that you can.

    I am saying a prayer, and wishing you Strength. You have proven YOU can do this.
    2260 days ago
  • JAMER123
    It is so good to hear from you again!! I know the year has been hard for you. I am around several ladies here in the resort park that are singles now, so very new and others, like my mom, who have been single many years. The sorrow and pain doe ease with time and you will begin to remember the fun and happy times you had together. We have many laughs when chatting. It certainly helps to find a support group that understands and you can talk with. Please take care of yourself so that you can continue to support others around you. You are very important to them and yourself.

    My thoughts & prayer are coming your way on this first anniversary. Blessings to you!
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    2260 days ago
    You're on the right track! The more you can do for others, including your kids, the more, I believe, you'll feel up to taking better care of yourself! I'm pulling for you and praying for you! Keep on keeping on, girl!
    2260 days ago
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