Are You Judging Me?

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Last night I went out with some girlfriends from high school. I spent way more time getting ready to go out with them than I would for my husband. Additionally, I worked hard to make it look like I didn’t do that.

Why am I so worried about what other people think? Why is that so hard wired into me? I’m constantly worried that someone thinks I look old, fat, ugly. Or gasp! All three! This is one of the reasons I don’t go out much or have “regular” girlfriends. I’m just way to self conscious.

But I had a great time. I had shrimp taco’s for the first time (no pic’s, see the above statement). They were so delish and I loved them so much! When I saw the bill I almost gagged because I could have made my whole fam shrimp taco’s for the $9.75 plus tip that it cost me. I guess I just don’t know how much it costs to eat out since I don’t really do that.

I stayed out waaaay past my bedtime and was exhausted. I subsequently overslept and missed Sunday School. Bummer! That’s my favorite part of church.


Today I did the 10-Minute Toning Workout from SparkPeople as a type of warm up. It actually had a new ab exercise in there for me. Loved that!

After that I went outside for Run #6 of the Couch to 5K plan. It was good but I really wanted to get 2 miles in and since I’m incredibly slow (hey, I’ll get there) I wound up walking another 20 minutes.

My original plan was to do yoga afterwards but the route the I took for the walk / jog thingy took me to this:

This is the entrance to my subdivision. No that hill is not exaggerated with this camera. And to top it off once you get to the top, it goes down and there’s another one. This was on the way back so I already had done this whole thing once.

It’s why all the runners in my subdivision have great asses.


This morning when I did finally wake up I had to rush because we didn’t want to be late for church.

I had whole wheat toast with almond butter. Here is the downright cruel part. I. Was. Out. Of. Milk. Rrrrr!


Lunch wasn’t much better because I totally forgot that I needed to eat again so I just grabbed this:

Honestly, I’m not super crazy about Chobani other than the pomegranate. But I still ate the whole thing because it’s so good for you that I felt the need.

Right before I went out for my Couch to 5K, I grabbed a handful of cashews. After the workout, I had chocolate milk because my wonderful hubby went to the store and got some for me.

I’ve also been cooking cabbage in the crockpot and it smells so yummy! Yeah, the buzzer just went off. Woohoo!

Question: What do you drink post workout?
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    WATERMELLEN I don't really hang out with anyone often. I'm really more of a homebody. That's the first time in the last year that I've been out with anyone other than family members. I guess I'm not the greatest at social situations.
    2287 days ago
    FITFABJENN I just started in with the Chobani so it's all new to me. I was actually sent a bunch because I run a review and giveaway blog. I do need to try mixing it with something like you suggested. It's really the texture that bothers me the most. I grew up in a hospital due to a birth defect and I have issues with foods that you are likely to receive after a surgery. LOL!
    2287 days ago
    Addiction to the approval of others: Steve Siebold ( says that's the worst addiction of all (and: related to overweight too).

    You look terrific in that bright pink Tshirt!! What a pretty woman! Not old. Not fat. Not ugly. Not remotely any of those.

    And: why do we choose to hang out with "friends" whom we believe could possibly be thinking such things about us??
    2287 days ago
    OOLALA53 You are so sweet! I don't like going to the local swimming pool but I'll go to the one at Six Flags because it's unlikely that I'll see anyone I know (even though it's local). Unfortunately, my mom was very much about appearance when I was growing up so it is so ingrained in me. I'm my worst judge!
    2287 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    I don't snack between meals whether I work out or not. You forgot that you had to eat? I rarely forget!

    You are not alone in caring what others think. I had a thin colleague, thin all her life, ask if any of us in our little lunch klatch (mostly over 50) still put on bathing suits in public. You mean you wouldn't, I asked? She has a body most women would kill for. Yet she doesn't meet her own standard, which means she is probably judging others, too. Women are much tougher on each other than many men are.

    I hated my body when I was younger (and weighed less) but I refused to let it stop me from going to the beach, etc. We are not here to decorate each other's worlds! The incessant emphasis on looks, clothing, fashion, etc. is wrecking our ability to see what is really important.

    This is not to say I'm not glad that I've lost weight and look different in clothes or that I am completely at peace with my body. I have become more likely to wear longer sleeves because of how crepey my skin is on my arms, but it will not stop me for going to the beach or a swimming pool.

    BTW, were you judging the other girlfriends? Would you have not wanted any of them not to come because she didn't look good enough? Of course not!

    You are a beautiful woman and deserve to approve of yourself! emoticon
    2287 days ago
    I do not care for the 0% Chobani but love the 2%. Have you tried the pineapple or the mango? Those are my faves these days, especially when I mix in some granola and fresh fruit. Yum!
    2288 days ago
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