So, yeah. I guess I had a breakthrough today. Or something.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Today was just...well...instead of boring you with all the details, let's do something fun and I'll tell my story in pictures.
Yesterday, work rocked and I felt on top of the world and I was all...
Today, work was really rough and I felt like...
At lunch, which was an hour and half later than usual because things had been SO busy, I really wanted to go to a buffet and eat...a LOT.
But, I knew in my heart that I should have this instead:
And do you know what happened THEN???? Sitting at my desk...this literally happened....
That's when I realized...there has never been a more CLEAR example of the fact that I am an emotional eater and that my trigger is stress.
So, I had an entire inner dialogue with myself. "OK, I want to eat because I'm upset. I feel....???"
Not Good Enough
Out of Control
And I chose the salad. It was delicious. But I still didn't feel better. So, the breakthrough was that I recognized, in the moment, what exactly was happening and I did the right thing.
But I'm still left with this icky, frustrated, anxious, jittery feeling. It's like...now how do I actually HANDLE all these yucky emotions if I can't just eat and stuff them down?