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Special Day

Thursday, March 15, 2012

There are things in our lives that we don't think we will ever share with the general population, let alone blog about it some day, but today I will share my special day with you all.

Today I have 10 years sober by the grace of God, the support of family and friends, the program of AA, and all of my new Sparkfriends. My life is so rich and blessed today. My gratitude is overflowing.

10 years ago I was at a pretty ugly bottom. Short cutting a long story, I put myself in rehab, one of the most courageous things I've ever done in my life. I had to take responsibility for my life, surrender to God, and take some very important life time steps. My health was precarious before my sobriety, but since March 15, 2002 I have had more health issues to work through. I believe my body was letting me know that it needed to purge and start over.

I have solved each physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual issue one day at a time for 10 years. The discovery of Sparkpeople last June was one more miraculous blessing in my life. I still have health issues, due to genetics, aging, and the poor care I gave myself in the past. But, I am healthier and happier now than I have been in my entire adult life.

I'm thinking about my twin brother today. He was murdered right before our 25th birthday in a store robbery. He was not given the opportunity to travel this highway of life. All of the many tragedies and road blocks I've encountered have been a privilege, giving me the opportunity to experience the miracles and blessings, and to be here today, honoring all that I have.

Today I am counting my blessings. It might take me all day........maybe more.

Thank you, Sparkpeople, for being the positive, non judgemental community that you are.

If I have a message today, it is to learn from the serious mistakes of others before you, like me. Be kind to yourself, praise yourself, hug yourself, affirm yourself, and let that love become outgoing today. You are important! The universe needs each and everyone of us, today........not down the road sometime!

Sending you all peace and love today and always.

Leslie
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  • SLIMMERJESSE
    Mega-congrats on your 10 years! Quite a feat. And very sad to hear of your brother's murder. I am so sick of all the crime in this country.
    2383 days ago
  • NOCALORIES
    I just have to thank you for sharing yourself with SparkPeople. You are a most generous lady. Life has its challenges, but with God all things are possible. God gives you the strength to move forward.
    2383 days ago
  • MEADSBAY
    I'm so sorry I missed this wonderful blog.
    Thank you so much for sharing this tiny peek into your beautiful heart and soul, Leslie.
    I am sorry that you lost your brother so young and so tragically. You must have been in so much pain.
    I admire you on so many levels and appreciate your friendship, wisdom and support here in Spark Land.
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    2398 days ago
  • BRITTERS23
    Proof of just how wonderful you are! Congrats you beautiful strong woman. You deserve all of the joy and happiness you can get in life :)
    2405 days ago
  • JUDIGIRL52
    Oh Leslie! What a beautiful blog with a beautiful soulful message. I rejoice in your life! Isn't it a wonder that life takes such turns? I mourn for the loss of your twin brother but take courage in your view of this long journey. I pray that even today, you are still counting those blessings. The Lord has more in store for you!

    You are a blessing for me. I've counted. :)
    2405 days ago
  • CALIKIKI
    Thank you for sharing your story with us and congratulations!! The whole story moved me and the pick (in SF?) is one of my favorite places in the city.
    2407 days ago
  • SUSIEWHITE1109
    Congratulations on your 10 year anniversary! I would have LOVED to be at the meeting when you got your 10 year chip!! I sometimes feel so repetitive when I say how you much you encourage me...but I'll say it again!

    I had no idea you had/have a twin brother - such a huge loss for you. I am grateful that all these years later, his memory is a source of inspiration to you, and a reminder to all of us about the unpredictable nature of life. We need constant reminders to treat it as a gift, don't we?

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    2407 days ago
  • LESSOFPMCD
    Great blog Leslie - thank you for sharing your story with everyone. i know it is not always easy to share our history with others. I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your twin at such an early age - not something anyone should have to endure.

    Congratulations on your choices that have brought you to the place you are now at.
    2409 days ago
  • LARSIL
    Thank you for sharing that, Leslie -- yes, it's a special day; and any day that you CAN count your blessings is special.

    Congratulations! Your brother was a major part of your life, and his memory continues to be cherished. In a special way, he is sharing in your triumphs and beside you as you face your challenges. I'll say it for him: "I'm proud of you!"

    Have a blessed day.

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    2410 days ago
  • NEWKAREN43
    Leslie, all I can offer you today is a thank you, for your transparency and a hug for the loss of your twin. Hugs. Love. Support. I can imagine today why you would choose to drink more than you would choose sobriety. I'm so, so glad that you took the very hard, emotional, essential step to choose sobriety. Blessings to you. Karen
    2410 days ago
  • AJDOVER1
    Finding you has been a real blessing in my life. Thank you for sharing your journey with me.
    Hugs,
    Aurlie
    2410 days ago
  • EBEAMS
    Oh ... how my heart squeezed for you when you wrote about your brother. Life is so very unpredictable and we have so little true control over some of the things that happen to us ... it makes so much sense to seize the day and enjoy what we have, love those around us and give back to the world. Our lives can be so small or really, really big ... Thank you for sharing your story with us!

    I honor your recovery today ... you are a true success story ... Well done, my friend!
    2410 days ago
  • IMAQUALITARIAN
    I am amazed at your strength. The longest I've ever been "sober" from over-eating was probably 3 years. Ten years is an outstanding accomplishment. I can't imagine either of my twins being ok without the other. I'm so thankful that you let his too-short life remind you of how precious this time is. God Bless and thank you for sharing your journey with us.
    2410 days ago
  • _CYNDY55_
    Congratulations on achieving ~10 years of wonderful Sobriety~!
    You are in the double digits my pretty friend!
    Very Awesome*::: Leslie :::*
    Thank You for sharing A special day in Your LIFE!
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    2410 days ago
  • LITTLEBO
    Cartwheel! Cartwheel! Cartwheel! Backflip! yeah
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    2410 days ago
  • PAMNANGEL
    Congratulations!
    2410 days ago
  • SHERRY666
    OH LESLIE........ WHAT A GREAT BLOG..... THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY WITH US...... YOU ARE SO STRONG.. AND THIS IS A VERY SPECIAL WONDERFUL DAY FOR YOU....... YOU CAME FROM THE BOTTOM AND FOUGHT YOUR WAY TO THE TOP.... I'M SO VERY PROUD OF YOU GIRLFRIEND... I'M SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR TWIN BROTHER... THAT MUST HAVE BEEN SO DEVASTATING..... BUT WE MOVE ON WHICH YOU HAD TO DO...... I THINK YOUR THE BEST.. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2410 days ago
  • RUNNER12COM
    What a beautiful message, and we are all blessed just for knowing you and the amazing, powerful woman you are.

    Happy 10th Birthday to you, my friend.
    2410 days ago
  • BETHGILLIGAN
    Thank you for sharing! You are a brave woman and I am blessed to have you as part of my Spark life!!!! Congratulations!!! You should be very proud of you!!!!
    2410 days ago
  • TRAVELGRRL
    I am sorry for the loss of your brother. What a tragedy.

    Thank you for sharing your story, and your uplifting, life-affirming message.

    I know it took a lot of courage to write this blog. I appreciate and applaud the person you've become.



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  • KITTYKITTEMMING
    Congratulations on your wonderful accomplishment. I know that making those decisions to change are never easy to do, and staying with those changes is even harder. I commend your decisions and your steadfastness in sticking with those decisions.
    2410 days ago
  • HDHAWK
    Congratulations to you Leslie! What courage to take the steps necessary to change your life. I'm sorry about your brother. What a painful experience. You should be very proud of yourself. I'm happy to know you! emoticon
    2410 days ago
  • BERRIMOUSE
    With God all things are possible. God bless you and stay on your journey in faith. Thanks for sharing... emoticon
    2410 days ago
  • DB6864
    Thank you Leslie for sharing your Journey!! God Bless!!
    2410 days ago
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