03/12/12 2:31am

Monday, March 12, 2012

Hello SparkPeople!!!

Well since the last entry I have gone DOWN HILL!!! The minute I got money I went and spent it on cookies, ice cream, donuts, subway!! I ate about 12 krispy kream donuts in two days!!!! I know they are good but 6 in one hour is way to much!!!! As all of you know there was a little voice that kept on saying "dont buy that" " eat that tomorrow" " save money on the bills" " grab a yogurt instead"

I have gained 10lbs in a week which I meant to lose. Now I have to lose at least 30lbs in two weeks or else I cant wear the dress to my friends wedding (Now I am thinking of now going due to my weight) I dont know how long this is going to last but I feel sooooooo sad for people who are the the store in a scooter because they cant walk. A part of me says that they should take the chance to walk even if it's for 5min but the other me is happy that I dont use a scooter.
I really dont want to EVER go on a scooter unless its an emergency!!!!! I need a BOB trainer or Dolvett!!!!!!!

Today I felt like a worthless waste of space!!! I dont have a job yet, dont have any friends to do things with, I DONT have a life worth living!!!!! I miss the children I took care of in WA, I miss the fact that my friends are moving on with their lives yet I am stuck in cement waiting for the end of the world. All this self pity is making me more angry and sad that it starts the cycle over again. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!! I need to DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!

Anyone know of good places to volunteer? Good work options I should try out?

I wish everyone had a great Sunday with loads of family and happiness!!!!!! Mine was Ok!!! :)

Thank you for reading!!!!
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    P.S. Don't be so hard on yourself, every season passes eventually.
    2869 days ago
    Awe Nadia! It's ok, we all have setbacks in our journey to lose weight. Just keep moving forward. You should focus on working out, I know this last week I had horrible eating habits, but I worked out and could feel myself getting stronger so I felt like it wasn't SUCH a bad week. The great news is that it's Monday, a new week! :) YAY! emoticon YOU CAN DO IT! emoticon
    2869 days ago
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    wow things sound really difficult and you are the only one who can change the way things are in your life. you really have to want change and then strive for it. i am sorry you are so sad and i hope you are able to put you life back together.. emoticon
    2870 days ago
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