Monday, March 12, 2012
Well since the last entry I have gone DOWN HILL!!! The minute I got money I went and spent it on cookies, ice cream, donuts, subway!! I ate about 12 krispy kream donuts in two days!!!! I know they are good but 6 in one hour is way to much!!!! As all of you know there was a little voice that kept on saying "dont buy that" " eat that tomorrow" " save money on the bills" " grab a yogurt instead"
I have gained 10lbs in a week which I meant to lose. Now I have to lose at least 30lbs in two weeks or else I cant wear the dress to my friends wedding (Now I am thinking of now going due to my weight) I dont know how long this is going to last but I feel sooooooo sad for people who are the the store in a scooter because they cant walk. A part of me says that they should take the chance to walk even if it's for 5min but the other me is happy that I dont use a scooter.
I really dont want to EVER go on a scooter unless its an emergency!!!!! I need a BOB trainer or Dolvett!!!!!!!
Today I felt like a worthless waste of space!!! I dont have a job yet, dont have any friends to do things with, I DONT have a life worth living!!!!! I miss the children I took care of in WA, I miss the fact that my friends are moving on with their lives yet I am stuck in cement waiting for the end of the world. All this self pity is making me more angry and sad that it starts the cycle over again. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!! I need to DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!
Anyone know of good places to volunteer? Good work options I should try out?
I wish everyone had a great Sunday with loads of family and happiness!!!!!! Mine was Ok!!! :)
Thank you for reading!!!!