I've had enough !!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
So this is my short story.
I am 40 years old , 6 ft. tall and weigh in at a large 360 lbs. I was in a Boston hospital with my girlfriend because her mom was about to have a triple bypass heart surgery. I found a scale in the hallway and stepped up on it to see the read out come up at 360 lbs. This was about a month ago. I have started eating much better from that day forward. About 2 weeks ago I started using my Planet Fitness membership that I had already been paying for, for the last 5 or 6 months. This past week I found myself here, joining Sparkpeople. I remember the days of my youth when I would enjoy doing physical things and working up a sweat, would make me feel energized and good. I want to have those felling again. I am so sick of being lazy, sapped of energy and just feeling like total crap. I have committed to getting back those feelings and being more healthy.
The person I want to be is one who is positive, healthy and have good self esteem. I want to go hiking and biking and play sports like I used to. At this weight, it is a sweaty struggle to do almost anything. I have been embarrassed many times while just walking around with friends on a hot summer day. They are all in much better shape than me and walk around, cool as a cucumber when I am huffing & puffing and sweating all over. That is embarrassing and makes me feel really gross and fat.
My first short term goal is to lose 60 lbs. in the next 4 months if I can. I know that 15 lbs. a month is a big goal and I will not get discouraged if I fall a little short. I just want to get back to 300 lbs and then set my next goal. The next 2 goals will most likely be 35 lbs. each. That would bring me down to 230 and at 6 ft. tall, I think that 230 is a weight that looks good on me. Anything under 200 and i would look like I was sick or something. I have a closet full of new jeans & shirts that I bought about 7 years ago when I was at 220-230. I will be so happy when the day comes that I can pull out that old bin and put those clothes back on.
Right now, after working out for 2 weeks and eating better for a month, I am really getting antsy about weighing myself. I have chosen to only weigh myself 1 time every month. I don't like to see bad weeks and the ups & downs when on the scale so I will just do it once a month and hope to see a great or good number.
That's it for now. Thanks for reading and have a great day !!
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