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"YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE LAST OF ME!"

Saturday, March 10, 2012

It has been a long time since I have posted a blog. But I am back. On one of the teams I am a member of we have a “Question of the Day” thread. One of the questions in the past month or two was “What is a good Song title for how you are feeling now”. I did not have an answer then, but now: Cher – You Haven’t Seen The Last Of Me. This is from the movie Burlesque.

Over the past 18 months I have had a lot of challenges with my health and physical state as well as my mental state. Around Sept of 2009 I developed carpal tunnel in my left hand. This is a Work Comp case. I had surgery in Sept of 2010. I was out of work for 5 ½ months. During this time I developed trigger thumb on my left hand. When the Dr who did the surgery released me he stated I had fully recovered with no problems and I did not need any future medical coverage. There were several wrong statements in his last report (this is the P&S statement for Work Comp). He stated he started seeing me for trigger finger in the thumb, and then I developed carpal tunnel, not true. He had seen me for Carpal Tunnel. He stated he did surgery for both the trigger finger and carpal tunnel after the steroid shot did not show improvement, not true. He did surgery for carpal tunnel in Sept. I developed trigger finger in Dec after the surgery. He gave me the steroid shot for my thumb in Dec. I went through Physical Therapy for both. I was released to go back to work Feb 28, 2011. I went to see him for follow up on Mar 9th. That is when he released me from his care. And that was after I told him my hand was very painful. I still could not completely bend my index finger (still cannot to this day, 18 months later), my scar was still hypersensitive (still is) and my pinky and that side of my hand hurts when I type. Being a medical biller I type most of the day. In his report he sated I was back to work for 4 weeks before he released me from his care. I was back to work for 9 days, 6 business days. So you can believe I was shocked beyond belief when I got that report. When I called my Work Comp adjuster and ask to see another Dr because I was still have problems with my hand I was told I would have to go through one of their panel Dr’s since he first Dr stated I did not need any future medical care. That took about 4 months for that process. Meanwhile I had called off work a couple times due to the pain. But since I was not under a Dr’s care (through no fault of my own) it was held against me.

In July 2011 the company I work for sprayed bug spray while we were at work. They ask us to leave for 10 minutes and then things would be fine. I am an Asthmatic and things were not fine. I had to go home due to an Asthma attack. I called out the next day because my chest was still feeling tight. When I returned to work I could still smell the bug spray but was able to tolerate it with my inhaler. One other girl had gone home for the same thing. Hers got worse because she sat there inhaling the fumes for over 90 minutes. It affected her to the point she had a major Asthma attack, wound up with Pneumonia, then hemorrhaged her vocal cords. The poor girl is still off on Work Comp because of it. That has been 8 months now. The time I went home early and called out because of the spray was also held against me. I could not believe they were holding work related issues against me because I did not run to their Dr’s. I know my body and know how to take care of it.

Sept 2011 I injured my knee. I have a blunted meniscus. I went to Urgent Care the day after I hurt it thinking I had just twisted it. But the pain was unbearable. I was written off of work and an MRI was ordered. That took longer than it should have because the approval was submitted for my shoulder, not my knee. Finally got the MRI and was referred to an Orthopedic Specialist. He looked at the MRI but never did an physical exam of my knee. He told me I needed surgery. That was in Oct 2011. His nurse said he surgical time was booked until Jan 2012. He told me to stay off my leg, keep it elevated, ice it and take Ibuprofen. So I did just that. Sat here bored and frustrated, knowing I was eating more calories than I was burning. I was burning less than 1000 calories on a good day. I have several medical issues like Diabetes, High Blood Pressure, Asthma, IBS, Arthritis in my knees, Osteoarthritis in my Hips, Type III Acromion in my left shoulder and Insomnia just to mention a few. So with my meds and everything else I have to eat. I am also an emotional eater. Those 4 four months were a huge battle for me mentally.

I finally got the OK to see another Dr for my thumb in Nov. He told me he could give me another shot but it would be shot after shot. If the first one did not last 4 months he did not think they would help much. Due to my age and health and he possibility of deterioration over time, I opted for surgery. My thought was what if I cannot have it later. We started that process. But due to issues with my adjuster it took a couple of months to get everything approved. Meanwhile I had asked this Dr is he could take over care of my knee. He agreed. I brought in a copy of the MRI, he reviewed the MRI and the report and said he did not see anything that shouted surgery him. He was not happy that I had been sitting on my butt doing absolutely nothing for 4 months. He said I needed to be in Physical Therapy. So that was started. My therapist told me everything from my hips down had been pretty much locked up from sitting. So with all that and my Arthritis I could hardly move.

During this period of medical issues I had various problems with work and keeping my job. I had been fighting with them about Dr’s notes, them not having to hold my position because I was off on State Disability. My position was eliminated in Nov 2011. So that meant not only was I temporarily disabled I was also unemployed. I did not understand how they could eliminate a billing and collections position in a company that does nothing but billing and collections. Especially since when I was written off for disability they hired 2 people to replace me and those 2 people were still there. Does not seem fair, but it is legal here in CA. Then in Nov 2011 after being laid off work I was place back on Work Comp for my thumb.

Update as of today. I have only one therapy session for my knee. It is doing a lot better on a daily basis. The Dr said if I continue to improve over the next few weeks I can cancel my appointment next month. My therapist says I am doing well. She will not recommend any additional therapy. She will give me an at home routine to continue my recovery. At this point I think I will be able to cancel that appointment. As for my thumb, I had the surgery on Feb 24th. Everything went well. The stitches come out on Tue. I am already in physical therapy and she says everything looks good. Recovery should be 3-4 weeks.

I have a plan. Once I have been released by the Dr I will be moving. I am going to move in with my daughter. She lives about 300 miles from where I am now. Living with her will give me the option to focus on ME. I will be in an area where I can do lots of yard work and gardening. These are my stress relievers and I really enjoy them. Not to mention a great exercise. I will also be able to walk outside more without worrying about my safety. Currently I live in So CA which is not a very safe area. I am very excited to me moving to where I can focus on my health and weight loss.

My motto has been “Today is The First Day of The Rest of My Life. No Regrets! Do Not Look Back!”

These are the lyrics for the song I have chosen as my theme song:

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there’s just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I’ll get up again
Don’t count me out just yet
I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me
They can say that
I won’t stay around
But I’m gonna stand my ground
You’re not gonna stop me
You don’t know me
You don’t know who I am
Don’t count me out so fast
I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me
There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I’m down now
But I’ll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I’m gonna show you all what I’m made of
I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me
No no
I’m not going nowhere
I’m staying right here
Oh no
You won’t see me begging
I’m not taking my bow
Can’t stop me
It’s not the end
You haven’t seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me
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