I am going to begin this with my March update pictures!
Slow but sure I am seeing little changes. I think one of the things I noticed with this one is that my back is starting to smooth out. I think that I could have made more progress this past month, but admittedly I fell off the track a little bit. Not going to let it discourage me though, I am back in the game and feeling motivated.
I have made the decision to get started again in school this summer. So I will be headed back to class the beginning of June, which gives me another motivating goal day to shoot for. Little by little I am progressing.
I had a bit of a wake up call this past week. Or perhaps something more like a 2x4 to the back of the head. There is nothing quite like the moment that you wake up and realize you have been sleep walking in the wrong direction for quite some time. God is drawing me back to the right path and reordering my priorities in a big way. Time to be honest, time to face reality, to accept the disappointment, and learn to love the new adventure. It is amazing how slippery that slope is, when you decide that perhaps this world really does have what you need and maybe, just maybe, if you try hard enough, you can make everything fit and not end up alone at the bottom of an empty pit. It is not possible. Jesus is the only peace and purpose I have ever found and I will never understand why He pursues me every time I run away. Why He wraps me up in His arms every time I come crawling back, bleeding and bruised, cleans me up and covers me with His love. All I can be is thankful, all I can be is in complete and total awe. All I can do is bury my head in His chest and fall to pieces.
I regret many things, but at the same time I am incredibly thankful that God is bringing me back to life.
Life has been hectic with work and such, but that is OK. I am trying to find some stuff to balance everything out. Basically right now my life consists of work and home, which is not necessarily bad, but I think I need to have some other activities and things to get involved with. I need to stop hiding. Sigh. Growing pains.
Good things are happening, difficult things, but good none the less. Sorry this update is a little vague, but it is the best I can do right now. Trying to get back in the swing, have been severely lacking in the sparking department lately, working on that.
Have a great weekend everyone!!