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Falling again.

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

It seems as nowadays I can be "perfect" only for three or four days, and when I fall I immediately go back to depression and hopelessness. It is interesting that I can see so clearly with my friends in AA that a relapse never leads to anything but depression or anxiety, but that does not stop me from relapsing with food.

As I was walking, hooping and biking yesterday I still stayed within my calorie range. I was at a seminar about export to Brazil and was invited for lunch. I could choose between fish our pork - and the traditional swedish potato sort of "raqlette" to that pork made me choose the course with the most calories. I also had some icecream for dessert...
For dinner I had a chef Meg creation:

onion, carrots, chick peas, green beans, green peas, potatoes, tomatoes, curry turmeric, cayenne pepper and vegetable broth 311 cal. Too hot and to be honest sort of boring... but cheap as I had all the ingredients in the house and took away my hunger. Without it my overeating at night would have been much worse so I am grateful.

The sink was shined.
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  • SILLYHP1953
    I need to start trying more meals on here, have only tried a few, and I even bought the cookbook.
    2240 days ago
    Perfection isn't always the best strategy for this journey. You are doing great and moving so keep going.

    emoticon on keeping the sink shiny. emoticon
    2268 days ago
    It's the picking oneself up that counts, I would have to agree. I'm in the same boat and I just need to keep paddling!
    2268 days ago
    Hey, I think three perfect days is pretty amazing, myself. I think I'm striving for semi, almost, not quite near perfect, most days.
    2268 days ago
    Just keep tweaking.
    Nothing wrong with your lunch if you enjoyed it. You can do that occasionally.
    It's mindless eating that will get you in trouble. Hang in there; I used to plot those down days on a calendar; they rarely lasted more than three days too. What's with the 3's? I found the 3rd day, 3rd week, 3rd month and 3rd year of maintaining the most difficult. Changing my mindset from "diet" to "lifestyle" has helped. But, I believe there were both physical and psychological forces at work too. On the 3rd year, definitely psychological; no more Kudos and support. Everyone acted as if I didn't need to "diet" anymore and it was harder to be consistent. This time I made it!!
    2268 days ago
    Totally with you on 'perfect for three days' only. The number of days may vary but overall trying to be 'perfect' is never a good idea for me - cos the minute I slip I feel so defeated that I stop trying at all. Personally I need to learn that living 'imperfect' - and accepting it- is the only possibility for me. I find it very difficult though. I have a friend who says 'OK - I'm putting that slip-up behind me and getting on with it' and she DOES because she really means it. I envy that. I need to learn how to mean it as well. You too?
    Try not to be disappointed in yourself - you have another chance today. emoticon
    2269 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/7/2012 3:57:41 AM
    Substitute sweet potatoes for white potatoes and what you have there is one of my favorite suppers, tho I might cut the cayenne a bit - I like super-spicy but not necessarily super-hot.
    2269 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    The meal looked fantastic.

    We both realise that even if we keep falling, picking ourselves up is the important bit!
    I've fallen again and need to be strong.

    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2269 days ago
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