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Stealing your thunder...

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

Yesterday was one of those days that had high highs and low lows. I started the day off strong with great conferences at the preschool for my boys. It's always nice to hear your kids are smart, funny, kind and considerate. From there I went to the YMCA and signed up for a membership. To get things started the Y wanted me to have an orientation to be sure I could use the equipment. I scheduled this for lunchtime so that after work I'd be able to get a workout in. I attended the orientation and met a great trainer who gave me some good pointers. I spend the afternoon working and excited about working out in the evening.

Man. Was I feeling great and invincible. And then I got a phone call that started off okay but quickly turned into a very emotional, painful discussion. One that took everything great I was feeling and made me feel guilty and awful about myself. The phone call lasted long enough that I missed the window when the Child Watch was open so I didn't get to work out. Instead I had to hurry dinner and get the boys to bed. They were extremely grouchy since they ate late and going to bed a little later than usual.

After they went to bed I wanted to go to the kitchen and eat the last of the cookies. But I didn't. I decided the best thing was to go to bed. I felt drained and knew that I had to get up early because I am travelling for work today. I did wake up in the middle of the night but I watched a few sitcoms and fell back to sleep.

Today I'm regaining some of the thunder I had yesterday. I am not quite back to where I was yesterday but I'm working on it. I am hoping to get back early enough to get to the Y. But if I don't, I don't. The important thing is regrouping and getting that "I'm worth it." feeling back.

In the past, yesterdays low would have taken me out for weeks, maybe months. These days I'm feeling so much stronger in mind that I'm accepting what I can change, letting go of what I can't and moving on with my goals. The peace that comes with knowing that I CAN and WILL is so powerful.

I will not let anyone steal my thunder. They may hijack it for a few short moments but I'm always worth it and will reclaim it!

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  • KLONG8
    WOW! This is so on the money, it's funny. You are really strong and in a good place and I know that didn't happen without effort on your part. No one can hijack your happiness. Thanks for sharing your strength and thoughts with us. We can all use the inspiration!
    2260 days ago
    I am so proud of you. You are taking time to think about your emotions and try to understand them. You know that eating cookies or giving up on yourself won't make you feel any better. You know that the "lows" will pass and better days are coming. You are working through the emotions and thinking things through before you react.

    You are taking care of yourself like a loving parent takes care of their child. That is just what you need to do. You have reached a wonderful goal in this journey...self-love.


    Have fun at your workout! WooHoo!
    2264 days ago
    I really really applaud your strength and staying true to your new self image.. I too had a rough day and I thought man I can just tear thru a big fat king size drumstick with nuts!!!!! but instead i got a refill on my diet coke glass as i walked past the ice cream cooler !!!!!!!! Only to feel great and wonderful after i got over my turmoil... Not letting anyone take away my glory of getting started on my weight loss for me .. and to get into my soon to be I like myself more pants and blouses.. Dress for success for you.... You did wonderfully .. hats off to you!! Ta Gypsy emoticon
    2265 days ago
    Wow, your strength is really inspiring! I love how you were able to acknowledge the low points and then move on. This is an awesome post!
    2266 days ago
  • NEWMOM20121
    Way to go. It's so hard when something like this happens. You soooooooo did the right thing and you will be able to get your thunder back. emoticon
    2268 days ago
    Sometimes I feel like my thunder is hijacked a hundred times a day. I just want to give up entirely! But you are soooooooooooooo right. Hijacking does not mean obliterating. I have to keep this in mind. I can only change myself. When I'm being super positive and my husband is negative and I get deflated, all it means is that HE is not ready to change, but I am already changed. This really made me rethink a lot of things, and I hope you're feeling better emotionally from that call. Misery loves company.
    2268 days ago
    Sorry you had a rough day but glad you realize that tomorrow is a new day. I am learning that as well! Here's to you having a GREAT day!!!
    2269 days ago
  • ANYVAR54
    Looks like you have made quite a bit of progress, and you are doing great. Hope today was better.
    2269 days ago
  • WINNIE1978
    I'm glad that you are not letting anyone steal your thunder! Way to go for avoiding the cookies!
    2269 days ago
    It looks like you have lots of great comments on this post. I just want to add mine and let you know there are lots of us who know how quickly high can go to low. Whatever you heard yesterday that took you down, know that you do not have to stay there. Don't let someone else determine your life! Put on a BIG Smile and go face the world emoticon
    2269 days ago
    It's all about attitude. I would say that you definitely conquered the day! emoticon
    2269 days ago

    There's the lightning - you'll be hearing your thunder soon!
    2269 days ago
    Great Attitude!!! Hang in there and keep making good choices!
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    2269 days ago
    I love how you say that your thunder can be hijacked but not taken - that's great! I've had those highs and lows and those lows would also take me out for a long time. I'm adopting your mindset!

    Congrats on a non scale victory!!!

    2269 days ago
  • BECCA53083
    You go girl ;) you are such a trooper. I was not feeling very motivated to work out today but your post has inspired me. Hope today is awesome for you.
    2269 days ago
  • DB6864
    There is always going to be Thunder stealers whether you weigh 120 or 220. How you handle the Thunder Stealer is another story. It sounds like you are doing fine, you have re-focused your energies back where they need to be. What is life without challenges, if you are like me, I sometimes ask why so many?? You take care of yourself and the rest will fall into place. Keep up the Great Work...Denita emoticon
    2269 days ago
    That's the spirit!
    I've had a few ups and downs too and know how important it is to tell yourself that tomorrow is a NEW day and I can make it better!

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    2269 days ago
    Good for you, i've been there and iunderstand those feelings emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2269 days ago
    Hang in there...and keep up the positive attitude! You are truly an inspiration to me...and others!
    2270 days ago
    Good for you! Steph, keep stealing back that thunder and keep in the groove. It was just a day. Count that as your rest day and you'll be okie dokie! I am so proud of you for joining the Y! You're awesome!

    Love ya,
    2270 days ago
    So glad you didn't give in to cookies! I'm proud of you for dealing with that negativity and not letting it take over your world. Do everything in your power to get to the gym today - that'll help you regain that thunder you had yesterday!!! Maybe you can channel CherryJones and power walk the concourse! (Assuming you are flying, please don't power walk while you're driving!) Keep got this. And don't forget, voicemail is a powerful tool...

    2270 days ago
  • MOM23ES
    Good for you! Brush it off and move on.

    I just joined the Y too. Thinking about doing a water aerobics class tomorrow. I am not brave enough for the fitness room yet and should probably do the orientation. emoticon
    2270 days ago
    Good for you!!

    I am glad you posted this too. We have all been there and it is nice to know we are not alone!

    I hope you have your thunder back now!
    2270 days ago
    Yay for deciding not to let anyone steal your thunder in the future. I am going to adopt those words TODAY when I go to work. My work environment has become very toxic lately. You helped me remember that we can decide not to allow people and things to steal our joy. Thanks! Great job on not eating those cookies or anything else not on your list of good things for you.
    2270 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    Good for you! emoticon

    Sometimes the choices are hard but you did emoticon
    2270 days ago
    Way to go! You really owned your power in your relationship with yourself and your relationship with food. I'm pulling for you today while you travel...don't let a break in routine get the best of you!
    2270 days ago
    You did great!
    2270 days ago
    You cannot control others, only how you react to them. You are well on your way to making strides in keeping yourself centered and healthy.
    2270 days ago
  • MRE1956
    You GO! Don't let the turkeys get you down!

    2270 days ago
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