On a better note!!
Monday, March 05, 2012
Well I had this whole blog typed out in the box and then accidently hit back and it deleted the whole thing, so I started over in Word.. Here we go round 2! I have finally beaten the negative “monster” out of my body and my home. I have become so upset with how I fail at “dieting” and gain two pounds here lose two pounds there then gain it all back again. I finally feel like I am ready to take on the world now that I have become happy with myself the way I am currently (that is the ultimate goal in life anyways is to be happy with yourself). If I am happy with myself at my weight now, I am truly positive that my beautiful self will be even more happy with a healthier fit version of myself. It has taken a very long time to discover my own happiness and now that I have it I have decided to not let one single person take that away from me. To all the negative people in the world I have one simple piece of advice for you- take a look at your own lifestyle and figure out what it is that is making you so upset with yourself that you displace your negativity on others!!!
Back to my own happiness! I have a doctor’s appointment in a little over 2 months and I really want to lose at least 25 pounds by then. I know this is a goal that I can achieve and plan to fully achieve by serious ass kicking work outs, tracking my calories and drinking as much water as I can. Before I was unable to tell when I was full so I would eat and eat until the point where I almost made myself sick from eating too much. Now I can actually tell when I am full and it is nice eating a lot healthier and having my body tell me when to stop eating. I have also almost completely taken soda out of my new lifestyle-sometimes I find myself in need of the caffeine and will drink only a can of diet soda. Eventually I would like to say that I no longer crave/want soda but for now it is all about baby steps.
I am glad I finally typed this blog out because I have had a constant struggle with my own mood and I really needed to realize how happy I am now with where I am and my lifestyle. I want my happiness to rub off on everyone especially my friend Stacy who is here on Spark and needs a little cheering and ass kicking motivation.. SO here it is…we got this girl!!!