Sunday, March 04, 2012
I think I am anyway.
Where do I start.. Well I could list all kinds of excuses for my long break from sparkpeople but I don't really see the point.
I think I may have started my whole "journey" at too low of a point in my life for it to do me any real good. I wasn't just fat.. I was depressed and I felt like a giant loser and it wasn't just to do with my weight. I felt like a big phony cheering other people on with their losses or when I'd try to encourage someone who had a slip up. I was doing really well but it almost became like a chore to me.
So I'm gonna try this again but this time I'm not gonna rush full steam ahead into it like I did last time with no gas station in sight for too long of a time. I pushed myself so hard into it last time that I just burned out so fast and couldn't even bring myself to get back into it cuz I was just sooo sick of all of it..
So for now I'm back but I'm not making sparkpeople an obsession as bad as facebook. It pretty much, like, took over my life last time.
Anyway enough random rambling. I have no idea if any of you have kept me on your friends list (or if anyone will even read this lol) after my longggg break but I'm looking for all my old and also some new friends! Good luck to all of you especially to those of you who may be struggling right now.