Home Alone! HELP!!!!
Friday, March 02, 2012
At home with the mother-in-law (MIL) today. The sitter couldn't make it so I am taking off work. As I look around preparing to cook her breakfast (mine will be a spinach egg white omelette), I see two packs of cookies - we keep these on hand for my MIL because she needs them - only weighs 86#. There will be no one here today but me and her. And I am very anxious. I know this sounds silly but when I am at home on the weekends, I have my days planned out, when I go to work, my day is planned out; today, my plans have been changed and I must make adjustments.
The day's scenario unfolds in my head:
9:00 a.m.: The cookies are beckoning, "Just one!" So, I eat just one while reading the nutritional content on the package.
9:15 a.m.: Hmmmm, not so bad, a serving size is two cookies so I may as well eat a whole serving. Now I have eaten two cookies.
10:00 a.m.: The voice: "You're staying home with the MIL today, you deserve a treat." I give in, that's three. "
10:15 a.m.: One more will complete that serving so we're up to four cookies.
11:30 a.m.: Okay, I've blown it for the day so I may as well eat what I want. So I don't stop with cookies, I eat the grandson's Reese's cup.
12:30 p.m.: LUNCH, YIPPEE!!! I eat healthy, I eat a tuna salad sandwich. Nah, it's healthy, I eat two!!!
1:30 p.m.: I really need to walk/run today. If I were at work, I would've already walked a 1.5 miles on my lunch break. But, it's raining and I just don't have the energy to get on the treadmill.
3:00 p.m.: Might as well try one of the cupcakes in the frig that the neighbor brought to MIL. I've already blown this whole day anyway.
4:00 p.m.: Grandson comes over. We play but all I really wanna do is take a nap.
5:00 p.m.: Too tired to cook, let's eat out. Hubby: where do you want to eat? Me: Chinese buffet! BUFFEEEETTTTT!!!!
7:00 p.m.: Time for my nightly popcorn but this time, I'm eating dip with it!!!
9:00 p.m.: Bed!
9:15 p.m.: Can't sleep! Indigestion, heartburn, feel horrible!!!!
10:00 p.m.: Finally get rid of the indigestion. Back to bed.
10:30 p.m.: Asleep, finally.
This is what I picture. This is what I am terrified of. This is what I do not want to happen.
Therefore, I am terrified to be home alone. Home at night with the fam is different. I am preoccupied, my night has a routine, a plan. Today is different. How do I fill all the minutes between planned meals????
Lord, please help me to stick with a healthy eating plan today. Please make me blind to the cookies in the pantry. Fill my day with healthy eating and exercise, with right thinking and obedience to Your will. Amen!
SparkPeople, I'm counting on you to fill my empty hours!!!