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From one extreme to another....

Thursday, March 01, 2012

Why does it have to be SO drastic? The first 2 weeks of Feb. I finally got my act together and was running again and controlling my nutrition and I picked out a HM to run at the end of March, got rid of all of my size 12's and all of my clothes that looked and felt baggy on me. I was on fire and ready to see a weight I had never seen before.

Then the 3rd week of February came and I fizzled! 5 days of disgusting binging---- McDonalds!!!! YUCK! I despise McD's, but for some reason I felt the need to make myself physically sick from food. I could not quit eating! I had resolved that I wouldn't be ready for my Half marathon (I only missed ONE scheduled run!) , my clothes no longer felt comfortable, and I was starting to wear my sweats again....

JUST 5 days brought me to that state!

Well, thankfully last Saturday, I got everything under control, got my act together and rejoined the healthy lifestyle. So here I am.... just 6 days after my binge-fest, I am feeling on top of the world again. I have really tightened up my diet and am feeling SO satisfied! Not even tempted or thinking about food. I am planning a PR for my Half marathon, I I have been jumping out of bed at 0315-0330 ready to rock the gym and tone my arms and abs. I am craving the feeling of sore abs and sore arms from a killer workout. My clothes that felt way too tighton me last week are feeling very nice this week.

I have goals for March, April, and May, and all the way up through vacation. I am trying to stay on fire and not sink back into wanting to eat myself sick.

I wonder if it will be this way for the rest of my life???? Either eating healthy, working out, and feeling awesome? Or eating non stop and being a couch potato? I hope not.... I can't take it. I have to learn balance, but I am starting to think that just doesn't apply to my personality when it comes to living healthy.
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    I think we have all been there, done that. But, "good for you" for turning it all around. Don't look back and worry - just focus on going forward!! You are doing great!!
    2297 days ago
  • XRSIZE18
    I don't know. I think sometimes I get so scared of success that I self-sabotage. I'm wondering why this is, but I find it especially affects me in the area of diet and exercise.
    2297 days ago
    Way to get back on track Helen!! I hate those binges though mine usually last more than a week.Good for you for only letting that last a week. My new goal is to run the HM next year at the Cowtown. I went this year to cheer on my sister in law who ran the full and was so inspired by all the people there!!
    2298 days ago
    I totally understand,and am right there with you! Here's to more binge free days than not! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2298 days ago
  • JLITT62
    Do you have problems with perfectionism? Beating yourself up if you don't do everything perfect? It sounds like that could be part of the problem. Still, no matter what, we're never done . . . Old behaviors are always there . . . We just have to keep fighting!
    2299 days ago
    It may be a roller coaster, but at least you are careening in the right direction!
    2299 days ago
    I know how you feel. Especially when my husband is home with me on the weekends (and on some evenings) he has a way of getting me off track with my nutrition and sometimes work outs. The important thing is to do exactly what you did - say "man those few days sucked but now I'm getting it back together" Congratulations on moving past a few bad days! emoticon
    2299 days ago
  • MAGGIE101857
    I can't look into the future, but I hope that the binges come less often! On the bright side - you are so much more aware of what is going on, and you are able to get right back on track! Stay focused on that!!!

    emoticon has been conquered again!!! emoticon Looking forward to your race report in the near future!!! emoticon
    2299 days ago
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