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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Work totally sucked today. I was basically in a bad mood there from 10am onward. The owner of our business encourages the 6 employees there to work as a team, and there's one person who will just never be a team player. That's the gist of it, but there's more drama to it than that. Today just made my blood boil.

I think that normally I would have stopped at Chic Fil A and got myself a large milkshake and spicy chicken sandwich under these circumstances. I would have stuffed it in my face in the car so that no one would know I did it. But that's NOT normal by any stretch of the imagination! No food, even "fast food", is meant to be shoved down your throat the way I used to do it... nevermind that, but I would do it SECRETLY! Looking back (mind you, this was 3.5 weeks ago), I realize that I have deeper issues with my food and emotions, or even the fact that I tie the 2 together. I'm thinking that while I am on Phentermine, I might seek out some counseling on what I'm dealing with there. Right now, I have it under control, but I want to make sure that I have an arsenal of information and help so that I NEVER EVER EVER go back to being that way!

Now the bright side to this is what I did instead of eating. Today was my off day from working out, but it was such a beautiful day, I figured that after work I would go for a bike ride. But then my bad day happened, and the bad mood followed me home... I knew a bike ride would be fun and relaxing, but I had built up anger seeping into my bones, and a bike ride wasn't going to be enough to kick it the f' outta there! So I laced up the running shoes, threw my hair up in a pony tail, and rode down to the gym.

I had a fire under my butt once I got on that treadmill. I have been working on how long it takes me to run/walk/jog a mile. My record time, so far, had been 14:09. Today I did it in 13:55. Pardon the lil' bit of french here, but....

Yeah. I channeled all that negative energy into that run. And you know what, it came out full blast. When the digital monitor read 1:00 distance and 13:55 time, I totally fist-pumped. The gym was packed, and MOST Oklahomans don't know what fist-pumping is, and I got a few strange stares, but whatev. At that moment, I was victorious, that SUPER-ME came out, and that beeotch side that bogged me down all day was gone. It felt good. I didn't have to calm myself with food. One workout, 2 small victories.

All in a day's work.

Until next time....
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    Working as a team is a skill. Your boss ought to be aware of this. If someone cannot work as a team, they need some training. In fact, the boss should have given you all training so everyone "is on the same page." Did you all get some training? Chris
    2564 days ago
    Yes, Tika, but do you associate it with Snooki? LOL I will edit that to say "most" Oklahomans. Or is it Okies?

    SKNY you are so right. The battle I'm having with this guy is proving to be as effective as trying to pick up the clean end of a turd. It's just not going to happen.

    Thanks everyone for the encouraging comments!

    2580 days ago
    Hey now. Some of us Oklahomans know what fist-pumping is. lol

    Good job on beating your 1 mile record and not turning to food.
    2580 days ago
    You go girl!!
    emoticon You Rock!
    2580 days ago
    so here's the pre-school teacher version-"you turned that frown upside down"

    mine-"it's much safer for me to HIT the gym than the person I'm thinking of..."

    Great job in finding an endorphin rush to knock out the blahs! Definitely consider chatting to someone about food, issues with food come in all colors, shapes and sizes...

    as for your co-worker..."there is no explaining stupid" ...if you could explain the behavior, it would cease to be stupid so really you are having a battle of the wits with an unarmed person, let it go. emoticon
    2580 days ago
    Love it. I remember when I got my first 3.1 miles done in under 45 minutes. It was at night, and when I saw the time I actually yelled "YES". To my dismay, there were people walking toward me, I was a little embarrassed, but Man it felt good. So pump that fist sister, and enjoy the moment!
    2580 days ago
    2580 days ago
    emoticon you did awesome by fist pumping your bad day away ! Rock on Sista. emoticon
    2580 days ago
    Great work! I can't tell you how many times I have driven through a McDonald's/Chick-Fil-A/Whataburger/
    Sonic on the way home from work. Barely tasting whatever I ordered and already thinking about how to hide the evidence from my family. Good for you for channeling that energy for something healthy.
    2580 days ago
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