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Long Overdue blog....

Monday, February 27, 2012

It's been ages since I've posted a blog here and thought it was about time to submit an entry. For those of my Spark friends that have been keeping up with me, ya'll know that I have been on again/off again here. My absence has definitely made a difference in how I've been managing my eating and exercise (or lack thereof). While these may sound like excuses for allowing myself to again put on some weight, it's just the everyday occurrences in my personal life that have added to using food as a comfort. Last year my brother-in-law (that I've known since I was 9 years old) suffered not one but two strokes. It has been hard for him but he has persevered and is making a slow recovery. Six months after he had his crisis, my mom suffered a stroke as well. It was heartbreaking to say the least since she is so severely handicapped due to years of rheumatoid arthritis. Truly I believe there is no stronger woman in this world than my mom. She has handled the disease, the loss of my dad and this stroke with such grace...I am extremely proud of her. But nonetheless it has been so hard to watch. There's a part of me that wishes I could give my mom a big kiss and hug to make it all better but I can't. Added to the mix I've been dealing with my oldest son who has heard his calling to serve our country in the Naval Nuclear program. As a mom we worry for our kids no matter what age they get to be. He's perfectly capable of taking care of himself I realize, but the mom in me wonders where the Navy will take him with our country and the entire world suffering with much conflict. Long and short of this is that sometimes the weight on our shoulders gets to be a bit much. I know it only adds character and growth from a personal perspective, but I do wish a little less character building were in the cards for me. emoticon

I'm not one to normally think of all the things that can drag a person down....I like to be optimistic and cheerful! So with this blog I am sort of leaving these worries at the door so to speak, and I will start anew with eating better, tracking my food and incorporating exercise back into the mix.

I cannot tell you all how much it's meant to have my Spark friends to support me, to cheer for me and encourage me along the way. I thank God for each and every one of you and look forward to what we all have ahead of us in 2012. Thanks ya'll for being my friend and life support. emoticon emoticon
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    After reading your blog entry, I once again feel such a kindred spirit with you. We are both facing similar situations, and I hope I am doing it with as much grace as you seem to be. I am so pleased to reconnect with a few "old friends" from a while back and wish you nothing but the best as we continue forward with this journey to improved health.


    2150 days ago
    So glad you finally got around to a blog. Sounds like you have had a rough year. I understand about wanting to give your mom a big hug and make everything all better. That is the way I felt with my dad when he was sick. It is very frustrating to not be able to fix everything. I can also relate to your son being in the armed forces, it must be a bigger worry than your normal mother worries.

    Keep posting and keep on sparking as much as you can.
    2303 days ago
  • SANDYB223
    HI Jo, Welcome back to blogdom!! I am sorry to hear of your challenges last year. You are definitely not alone. My MIL has been ill and in and out of hospital and rehab. My mom has had lots of medical stuff too. I am soooo happy that you are back sparking and blogging. My best to you and your family. You must be proud of your son, but I can understand your worry--it's what we as moms do. Thoughts and prayers for his safety.
    Lots of love to you spark sis,
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    2305 days ago
  • KARENE10
    I think that a lot of us use food for comfort(why else would we need a "diet"site:) You certainly have a lot of stressors. I will keep your family in my prayers. You will feel so much better about yourself though if you can continue to exercise and eat healthy emoticon . emoticon
    2305 days ago
    emoticon I think one of the hardest things in life is how much we care about others and cannot "fix" things for them! Failing to take care of ourselves doesn't make their lot in life any better... that's one of the best arguments I give *myself* to take better care of me, while still caring deeply for my loved ones.

    Prayers for you and yours, as you once again pick up the mantle of more determined self-care... so you'll be healthy and there for them. And thanks to your son for his willingness to answer the call.

    - Barb
    2305 days ago
    Oh my ... I feel your struggles and my prayers are with you. It often seems that Life is like a tidal wave that just keeps pushing and pushing up against the place where we believe the boundaries of our "I CAN" lie ... and Life keeps helping us develop more and more strength of character through our challenges. While exercising and eating well is a gift we give ourselves, there are times when ourselves come last in some equations, especially as mothers.

    You are in my prayers ... for courage, strength, faith and the wisdom to give unto yourself what you need to make it through each day. Hugs and God bless you ... and keep your son safe as he journeys into the great unknown ... emoticon
    2306 days ago
    Oh I'm tickled to see your post and you back on SP. I can so relate to life's stresses and know you are NOT alone. We all have em my friend and we have to figure out how to deal with them without ruining ourselves in the process. You too can do it as you matter to so many. I am so sorry about your mama. I experienced a lot of sadness with my mama over the years and one thing never changes, we love our mamas. Period! We hate to see them hurt just as they (and we) hate to see our children hurt. So taking care of you is very important. I always smile when I see you've popped in to just say 'hi' and let me know you're still out there. I'm hopeful we'll chat more often now too!

    2306 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    Lots of prayers for you and your family.
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    God bless your son and keep him safe.
    2306 days ago
  • DEBK0923
    My, ut sounds like you;ve been throught it. I hope everything is getting better for you . mYour son will be fine, When My son went into the army then decided he wanted to be special forces and then on to green baret school trained with Navy Seals, I wanted to shake him, but he knew what he wanted and so does your son. Ans you are right being on here makes us eat better and move, Have a great day tomorrow

    Deb emoticon
    2306 days ago
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