Feeling human again :)
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Despite the fact that I'm looking after two teenagers on my "holiday", I am feeling very relaxed! The kids pretty much take care of themselves, and a few early starts aren't going to kill me. I'm really enjoying being a stay at home fake mum!
The weather is great (25-30C), besides dropping the kids here and there, making lunches and washing clothes, I'm mostly lying by the pool, reading books, taking swims, working on my tan, taking the dog for a walk and still managing to do my bootcamp workout videos which is all very relaxing! Sure my eating might be a little bit off, but that wont kill me either. My stress levels are way down low, which is exactly what I've needed for some time.
It really is a shame we can't take more holidays, and especially more often when we need them. I know we need to work to keep ourselves in the style we've become accustomed to, buy food, clothes, electricity, water etc but all these things can really get in the way of de-stressing and feeling human again! I'm just starting to feel human and I like it. Maybe we get so caught up in our lives, we forget to take out time for just us.
Do you know what I'd really like, is to be able to take say 6-12 months off work, take stock, maybe travel a bit, relax, and figure out where my life is taking me, maybe even re-plot my course. At the moment I feel like I'm just being swept along without any real control. What's stopping me you might ask? I guess it's just fear of the unknown. Whilst I may be being swept along at the moment, it's safe and what I know. I work, I pay the mortgage and other bills, I work, i have a bit of time out on the weekends etc etc. I'd love to know how to make the leap into the unknown without feeling even more out of control?