Friday, February 24, 2012
I want to make something perfectly clear. I am not starving. I eat and I'm full at the end of each meal. I'm not left 'wanting'. However, I do get hungry. And I'm learning that that's okay.
I was watching a BBC documentary on youtube about dieting and hunger and food, and there was one woman they featured who said she had probably never felt hungry in her life. Not really. Any time she started to feel a bit peckish, she'd snack. And that really resonated with me. Now, I have been hungry. I've been in the hospital a few times and they kind of make you fast before blood tests and other things. But for the most part, I acted like this woman did. Start feeling peckish, and I'd reach for a snack. Didn't matter what, I just couldn't be hungry.
When I'm really hungry (ie fasting for a blood test) I can get quite snappish and irritable. It gave me a wonderful excuse not to let myself 'go hungry' - after all, I don't want to snap at people. Except my moods are more under my control than that, and to be perfectly honest, waiting an hour to eat is not the same as fasting for a day - and shouldn't give me license to be a b*tch.
So I'm learning its okay to be hungry. To start feeling rumblings around 5 and be okay until I can eat around 7. I'm not going to snap and start gnawing on coworkers (no matter how much I may joke), and I'm certainly not going to faint or 'die of starvation'. I'm still carrying around enough fuel to get me through probably a week of not eating. :)
And if its going to be really bad? Carrot sticks are my friend.