Epiphany - I'm safe
Friday, February 24, 2012
A thunderbolt hit me yesterday.
I eat too much because I was taught that if I didn't eat enough I'd DIE.
The truth is, I am surrounded by food, I live near a grocery store and we have a good income. I don't need to eat as though I was about to hike through a snow storm for 20 miles. I'm safe.
I eat too much because some fat on me makes me 'less attractive' and I won't be attacked by horny deranged men and jealous girls. Not like this has ever happened, but it was what I was taught. Being hot meant I was asking for trouble (not that 20 lbs would suddenly make me hot).
This irrational thinking has guided me for 45 years. I need to smarten up.