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Epiphany - I'm safe

Friday, February 24, 2012

A thunderbolt hit me yesterday.

I eat too much because I was taught that if I didn't eat enough I'd DIE.
The truth is, I am surrounded by food, I live near a grocery store and we have a good income. I don't need to eat as though I was about to hike through a snow storm for 20 miles. I'm safe.

I eat too much because some fat on me makes me 'less attractive' and I won't be attacked by horny deranged men and jealous girls. Not like this has ever happened, but it was what I was taught. Being hot meant I was asking for trouble (not that 20 lbs would suddenly make me hot).

This irrational thinking has guided me for 45 years. I need to smarten up.
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  • HIKETOHEIGHTS
    I am grateful you are safe & very insightful as well. Victoria
    2306 days ago
  • SOULTHIN
    Hi,

    Just to let you know, your blog is the unconscious, and conscious ideas of many, many women, specially those that went through some kind of trauma, or whose parents went through trauma, it is very common in post war Europe.

    Don't worry, you are safe and normal.

    Great page,

    ThinSoul
    2307 days ago
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